The fault in our stars 2

1. Dear Hazel, received word via the Genies that you will... you'll be visiting us with Augustus Waters and your mother on the fourth. Mom? - What's wrong?  - Sorry. No, I was just taking a bath. Did you email the Genies to tell them that the trip was off? Because Van Houten's assistant just emailed me... and she said that she thinks we're still coming. I was supposed to tell you with your dad. We're going to Amsterdam. We figured the whole thing out. We're going. Doctor Maria, everybody knows. - But only for three days, not six. But everything. An oncologist is set there. Everything. We're just so good. You can come talk to me. You've got a phone call to make. Call him! Okay, lungs, you keep your shit together for one week. You got it? One more week. 2. Oh. Oh, wait, the food. What did you forget? Do you have my passport? Yeah, I've got it. It's like I said to the Genies... I travel in style, or I don't travel at all. Hello, Lancasters. Gus. Hey. Nice to see you. I'll take that, sir. Gus, you're so inventive! Okay, Hazel Grace? 3. What's in your nose? I'm really sorry about that. No, it's totally fine. It's called a "cannula(cannula (ˈkænjulə) or canula A flexible tube, usually containing a trocar at one end, that is inserted into a bodily cavity, duct, or vessel to drain fluid or administer a substance such as a medication.)." And it helps me breathe. See this little friend right here? He feeds oxygen through your tube. Will it help me breath, too? Maybe. Do you want to try it? There ya go. It tickles痒痒的(I. [transitive] 挠痒痒. to move your fingers gently on someone's skin in order to give them a pleasant feeling or to make them laugh. The dog rolled over, waiting for his tummy to be tickled. a. [intransitive/transitive] if something tickles you, it touches your skin gently and gives you a pleasant or slightly uncomfortable feeling. Bubbles from the champagne were tickling her nose. II. [transitive] 好笑. informal if something such as a remark or an idea tickles you, you think it is funny. It tickled him to think that she'd asked him for advice. a. if something tickles you, it makes you feel pleased. It always tickled her to get a card from them. tickle someone's fancy informal old-fashioned if something tickles your fancy, you like it or you think it is funny. n. an act of tickling someone. give someone a tickle轻轻挠一下: She gave him a little tickle under the chin. II. a slightly sore feeling in your throat that makes you want to cough. )! Wow, yeah, that's something. I think I'm breathing better. I would love to give it to you, but I kind of could use the help( use I. [transitive] to treat someone in an unfair way, for example by pretending to care about them so that they do what you want. You know he's just using you. use someone for your own ends (=to get what you want) 为一己私利: Liz has always used people for her own ends. II. [transitive] to say or write particular words. Don't use language like that in front of your little brother. use something to do something: McClaren used the same words to describe his feelings. III. [intransitive/transitive] to take illegal drugs regularly. In jail, he continued to deal and use drugs. She's using again. could use something 真是需要, 实在是需要, 离不了, 离不开, 没有不行 spoken used for saying that someone or something needs a particular thing very much. You both look as if you could use a drink. 下文有另一个例子: She asked me to write one, and I'm trying. I just... I could use 欠缺一点, 缺一点 a little flair.  "I could really use a cup of coffee." "Excuse me, I could use a little help...". You say "I could use ___" to indicate that you really want or need something, like a drink, but for some reason you haven't been able to get it yet. In the example at top, you say "I could really use a cup of coffee" because you're very sleepy and need some coffee, but there's no coffee nearby. Here's another example - when you're struggling with something, and there's someone nearby who isn't helping you, you can say: I could use a little help. ). - Thanks for letting me try it.  - You're welcome. All right, Jackie, let's go. Flight 1721 is now prepared to begin boarding at gate 46... - I think that's us.  - That's us. Come on, help me. - What, are they wet?  - Wet hands手湿. - I'm sorry about that.  - Gross! Get outta here! Stop it! Have you never been on a plane before? It's exciting. There's no smoking on this plane. Or any plane. I don't smoke. Yeah, it's just a metaphor. He puts the killing thing in his mouth... but he doesn't actually give it the power to kill him. Well, that metaphor, it's prohibited 禁止的 on today's flight. Flight attendants, prepare for take off, please. Gus, this is what it's like to drive in a car with you. Nothing has ever looked like this in all of human history! 4. Look at this, Hazel. This is so crazy. Look at the stained glass. It's amazing. Oh, I'm gonna check us in. We better get you dressed... because you have reservations for two tonight, for dinner at Oranjee. And it says, "Enjoy. Mr. Peter Van Houten." So, I looked it up and it sounds amazing. The guide book says it's fancy and very romantic. Will you wear? Is that for me? Oh, my God. It's so beautiful. What, you're saying that you're totally fine...with your teenage daughter running free with an older boy... in a city that's famous for its vice and debauchery is totally fine with you? Yeah, that's pretty much exactly what I'm saying. Oh, you look so handsome! Thank you, ma'am. Hazel, Gus is here... looking incredible! I hear this restaurant is unbelievable. You look gorgeous. This is it就是这里了, 就是这个了. Oranjee. Yeah, this is it. Your table, Mr. and Mrs. Waters. The champagne is our gift. Enjoy. Would you like a menu, or will you have the chef's choice? Chef's choice sounds wonderful. And, sir, um... something tells me我感觉, 我有种感觉 we're gonna need a little bit more of this. We have bottled all the stars for you this evening, my young friends. - Ooh! - I think that's ours. Dragon carrot risotto for the lady. And for the gentleman. I want this dragon carrot risotto to become a person...so that I can take it to Vegas and marry it. I like your suit. Thank you. It's the first time I've ever worn it. That's not the suit you wear to funerals? No. That one is not nearly this 差远了 nice. When I first got sick...  they told me I had an 85 percent chance of being cancer-free. Great odds. But that meant a year of torture磨难, the loss of my leg... and, still, a 15 percent chance it might fail. Just before the surgery... I asked my parents if I could buy a really nice suit. So, it's your death suit. That's what it is就是的. I have one of those. I got it for my fifteenth birthday. A dress. I don't necessarily think I'd wear it on a date, though. So, we're on a date? Hey, you watch it小心哦. We are Mr. and Mrs. Waters. Oh. That's just because she can't speak English. We should be, though, if they ask. You know? Remember what you said about Vegas? Do you think I could join in on that deal? I guess I wouldn't go as far as to say "no" 不至于去说... but I would like some evidence. What about you? - Absolutely.  - Really? I mean, not like a heaven where you ride on a unicorn all day... and live in a mansion made of clouds... but yes, I definitely believe in something. I mean, otherwise... what's the point? Maybe there is no point. I won't accept that. I am in love with you. You heard me. And I know that love is just a shout into the void... and that oblivion is inevitable. And that we're all doomed... and that one day... all of our labors will be returned to dust归于尘土. And I know that the sun will swallow the only Earth we will ever have. And I am in love with you. More stars? No, thank you. I think we'll just have the check结账买单. Your meal has been paid by Mr. Van Houten. 5. I don't really get that shirt. But Van Houten will get it. There are, like, fifty Magritte references in An Imperial Affliction. "This is not a pipe." But it is a pipe. But it's not. It is a drawing of a pipe. A drawing of a thing is not the thing itself.  Nor is a T-shirt of a drawing of a thing, the thing itself. When did you get so grown up什么时候长这么大了? Who's ready for some answers? I'm so excited, I can barely breathe. As opposed to normal? Get out of here. Peter! They're here! Who the hell is "they," Lidewij? They are Augustus and Hazel... the young fans with whom you've been corresponding. The Americans? You invited them. You know why I left America, Lidewij. To never have to encounter Americans. You're American. Incurably没救的 so. Get rid of them. I will not do this, Peter. Please, be nice. Sorry, let me clear this for you. Which of you is Augustus Waters? Mr. Van Houten, thank you so much for writing back to us. Clearly an error in judgment判断错误, 判断失误. Yours are the first missives to which I've replied, and look where it got me. She thinks I have a drinking problem. I also think the Earth is round. So, you like my book. - We love your book. He made his wish meeting you so that we could talk. - No pressure.  - Yeah. Did you dress like her on purpose? Kind of. And, incidentally, sir, we both really wanted to thank you for dinner last night. And for the champagne. It was magical. We bought them dinner last night? It was our pleasure. You've come a long way. We have some questions... obviously, about what happens at the end of your book. Uh, specifically确切说, 准确说 to those who Anna leaves behind. Like her mom, the Dutch Tulip Man... How familiar are you with Swedish hip-hop? I would say, limited有限的.  Uh, Lidewij, play Bomfalleralla immediately. We don't speak Swedish, sir. Who the hell speaks Swedish? The important thing is not what nonsense the voices are saying... but what the voices are feeling. Are you messing with us你是在找事吗? Like, is this some sort of performance? Gus, sit down. All right, so at the end of the book, Anna's... Let's imagine you're racing a tortoise. The tortoise has a ten-yard head start. In the time it takes you to run ten yards... the tortoise has moved maybe one yard, and so on, forever. You're faster than the tortoise, but you can never catch him, you see? You can only decrease his lead. Now, certainly, you can run past 超过 the tortoise... as long as you don't contemplate the mechanics involved. But the question of "how?" turns out to be so complicated... that no one really solved it... until Cantor's proof that some infinities are bigger than other infinities. I assume that answers your question. Hazel, I'm sorry. I have no idea what's going on. Yet you seemed so intelligent in print, Mr. Waters. Has the cancer found its way into your brain? Can we, for one second, just focus on Anna? I understand that the story ends in the middle of a sentence... because she dies, or that she becomes too sick to continue... I am not interested in talking about that book. But that doesn't mean that her family and friends don't have a future, right? I said I'm not interested. But you promised! Nothing happens! They're fiction虚构的! They cease to exist the moment the novel ends. But they can't! I get it in a literary sense or whatever, but... I can't do this, Lidewij. It's impossible not to imagine what... I will not indulge your childish孩童的, 幼稚可笑的, 荒唐的 whims(indulge I. [intransitive/transitive] to allow yourself to have or do something that you enjoy. indulge in: an opportunity to indulge in leisure activities like reading. indulge yourself (in something) 纵情于: Indulge yourself – come on a gourmet food weekend. indulge a passion/taste/interest: The new job gave him the chance to indulge his passion for music. a. [transitive] to allow someone to do what they want or enjoy. to be too generous in allowing somebody to have or do whatever they like. 放任. 放纵. 纵情声色. 声色犬马. 娇惯. 惯着. 由着性子 indulge somebody (with something) She did not believe in indulging the children with presents. His questions were annoying but it was easier to indulge him than try and protest. He loves his wife and indulges his sons. It's part of her agent's job to indulge her whims. Her father had always indulged her every whim想到一出是一出, 由着性子来.奇思妙想, 突发奇想. b. [intransitive/transitive] to have or eat something that you enjoy but that you should not have much of. Many people feel that their holiday is the time to indulge放纵, 尽情享乐. II. [intransitive] to become involved in something that people do not approve of. indulge in: He had indulged in affairs with several women.). I refuse to pity you可怜 in the manner in which you are accustomed. - I do not want your pity!  - Of course you do! Like all sick kids, your existence depends on it. - You are fated to live out your days(live out one's days/life 渡过余生, 度过余下时日 to live for the remainder of one's life. (Usually with some reference to a place.) Where do you plan to live out your days? I will live out my life in sunny Florida.)...  - Peter! As the child you were when diagnosed. A child who believes there is a life after a novel ends. And we as adults, we pity this. So, we pay for your treatments, your oxygen machines. Peter, that's enough. You are a side-effect to an evolutionary process...that cares little for individual lives. You are a failed experiment in mutation. Listen, douchepants... there is nothing that you're gonna tell me about my disease... that I don't already know. I came here for one thing and one thing only. That is for you to tell me what happens at the end of this goddamn book! I can't tell you. - Bullshit!  - I can't. Then make something up! I want you to leave. Have you ever stopped to ask yourself... why you care so much about your silly questions? Oh, go fuck yourself. Hey, it's okay. I'll write you a sequel. It'll be better than any piece of shit that drunk guy could write. It'll have blood, and guts, and sacrifice. You'll love it. So sorry that I spent your wish on that asshole. No, you did not spend it on him. You spent it on us. Hazel and Augustus! I'm very sorry. Circumstance has made him cruel. I thought meeting you would help him... that he could see that his work has shaped real lives. But... I'm very sorry. Perhaps we can do some sightseeing? Have you been to the Anne Frank house? I'm not going anywhere with that man. No. He is not invited. I'm afraid there's no elevator. There are many stairs. - Steep stairs.  - I can do it. - Hazel, we don't have to...  - I can do it. Frank's family came from Frankfurt, in Germany. Anne Frank's diary would become world famous. It's difficult in times like these. It's a wonder I haven't abandoned all my ideals. They seem so absurd and impractical...yet I cling to them because I still believe... in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart. It's utterly impossible for me to build my life... Hazel, I'll carry it if you want. I got it我拿就好, 我拿好了. So this is the actual bookcase that hid the Frank family. We're much too young to deal with these problems...but they keep thrusting themselves on us... until, finally, we're forced to think up a solution. You okay, Hazel? Don't worry, take your time. And yet, when I look up at the sky... I somehow feel that everything will change for the better变好. That this cruelty, too, will end. Hazel, I think that's enough. You don't need... you know? All is as it should be一切都是原本应该的样子. God wishes to see people happy. - Where there is hope, There is life. This is it, look. The only member of the Frank family to survive was Otto. Anne's father. At such moments... I can't think about the misery... but about the beauty that still remains. Try to recapture the happiness within yourself. Think of all the beauty in everything around you...and be happy. I fell in love with him the way you fall asleep. Slowly, and then all at once. It just sort of ends right above where the knee and tapers off. You know, just so you're prepared. get over yourself. I can't, it's stuck. 8. I can't believe you called him "douchepants." How did you come up with that想起来的? I don't know, it just came out脱口而出. I was so angry. What a monster. Mom, it was awful. Then what happened之后做了什么, 之后干什么了? We went to Anne Frank House. Oh, you did? - It was really awesome.  - Was that incredible? And after that? We just walked around. That sounds lovely. We probably still have a few hours, right? Should we go to the Van Gogh Museum? Whatever you want. Probably don't have time to do everything, but... You're just gonna have to come back, is all. Could you just not be ridiculous right now, please? Hazel, I'm not being ridiculous. I'm being positive. Mrs. Lancaster? Do you think Hazel and I can just have a little time alone? Sure, Gus. Um, I am gonna run to the room... and be ready whenever you guys want to do something. Want to go for a walk? What is it? Just before you went into the hospital, there was this... I felt an ache in my hip. So, I had a PET scan... and it lit up like a Christmas tree. The lining of my chest and my liver...  Everywhere. I should've told you. It's so unfair. Apparently, the world is not a wish-granting factory. Don't you worry about me, Hazel Grace, okay? I'm gonna find a way to hang around here and annoy you for a long time. Are you in pain现在疼吗? I'm okay. I don't suppose you can just forget about this? You know, just treat me like I'm not dying. I don't think you're dying, Augustus. You've just got a touch of cancer.  Would it be absolutely ludicrous... if we just made out? Right now? 9. So how are your eyes, Isaac? They're good. They're not in my head, is the only problem. Besides that... Well, um, it appears my entire body's made out of cancer now. So, sorry to one-up you抢先一步, 抢了你先, dude. Did you, uh... write his eulogy yet? I haven't told her yet, Isaac. What are you talking about? I need speakers at my funeral. So, I was hoping that you and Isaac, but mostly you...would be, um, kind enough to whip something up拼凑一篇. I would love to do that. You guys are cute. Makes me sick. You guys are gross. Have you heard from Monica? Nope, not a thing. She hasn't even texted you to make sure you're okay? - Not once.  - I hate that girl. But there are tons of other girls.You guys don't have to worry about me. In support group, there's this new girl... and she has these humongous... How do you even know that? I'm blind, but I'm not that blind. Do you happen to have five dollars? Okay, so, now what? I smell eggs闻到鸡蛋味了. That eggs? Is it there? I'm nervous. Is Monica in there? It doesn't matter where Monica is. This is not about Monica. This is about you. - Okay. Can I have an egg?  - Hazel Grace... I didn't hear anything. It's all right. A little more to your left朝左边点. Wait, throw to my left, or should I aim a little left? Aim left. - Okay.  - Left-er. Gus, I think we should wait until dark. It's all dark to Isaac. Dude, I'm not deaf. I'm just blind. So I can hear when you make fun of my disability. And I don't love it. Where do I throw?  - Just throw hard. I hit it! I hit it! Now I know exactly where to line it up. That was so exhilarating! Keep it going. Keep going. Keep throwing, keep throwing. Hello. Are you Monica's mother? Your daughter, she's done a great injustice. So we've come here seeking revenge. You see, we may not look like much 看起来不起眼, 看起来平常, 看起来一般, 看起来没什么 ( Doesn't look like much, but looks are deceptive. She may not look like much, but she's got it where it counts. "Used to keep a bitch in my stable name of McCready," Cheese said eventually. "Occasional trade, not regular. Didn't look like much, but you gave her the right party favor, that girl could go." She didn't look like much = Her looks weren't up to much = She wasn't much to look at. not much to look at 看起来不起眼的, 看起来平常, 看上去不起眼的, 貌不惊人, 其貌不扬的 informal not very attractive. He's not much to look at, but he has a great personality. )... but between the three of us, we have five legs, four eyes... and two-and-a-half working pairs of lungs. But we also have two dozen eggs... so if I were you, I would go back inside. - Dude, it actually worked?  - Yep. That was the stupidest speech I've ever... That actually worked? There you go. Hold on. This feels so good! 10. I'm at the gas station. You're what? Something is wrong. You gotta... Can you come? Can you come and help me? Babe, what's going on? Gus, it's infected感染了. Take a deep breath. Gus, I have to call somebody. No, no. Please don't call 9-1-1. Please. Don't call my parents or 9... I will never forgive you if you call them. Gus, what are you doing here? I wanted to buy cigarettes. I don't know what happened to my pack那包烟. I might have lost it or something, or they took it, but I just... I wanted to do something for myself, you know? I wanted to do it myself. I wish I could say that Augustus Waters kept his sense of humor until the end. That not for a single moment did his courage waver. But that is not what happened. It hurts so much. I'm so stupid. Will you tell me a story? Or, like, a poem? I do know... I... I know a poem. Will you tell me it? The Red Wheelbarrow by William Carlos Williams. "So much depends upon a red wheelbarrow. That's it? Is that all? No, no, no, of course not. Of course not. How's he doing? He's had a tough night, Hazel. His blood pressure's low. His heart... What about the chemo? They are gonna stop the chemo. Can I see him? We'll tell him you were here你来过了. I'm just gonna hang out for a while, if you don't mind. Yeah, of course. Take your time. 10. What are you thinking about? Oblivion. I know it's kid's stuff小孩玩意, 孩子气 or whatever, but... I always thought I would be a hero. I always thought I'd have a grand story to tell. You know, something they would publish in all the papers, and... I mean, I was supposed to be special. You are special, Augustus. Yeah, I know. But... you know what I mean. I do know what you mean, I just don't agree with you. You know this obsession you have with being remembered? - Don't get mad.  - I am mad. I'm mad because I think you're special. And is that not enough? You think that the only way to lead a meaningful life... is for everyone to remember you, for everyone to love you. Guess what, Gus. This is your life, okay? This is all you get. You get me, and you get your family, and you get this world, and that's it. And if that's not enough for you, then I'm sorry, but it's not nothing. Because I love you. And I'm gonna remember you. I'm sorry. You're right. I just wish you would be happy with that. It's a good life, Hazel Grace. It's not over yet, you know. One of the less bullshitty废话连篇的 conventions of the cancer genre... is the convention known as the "Last Good Day"... when it seems like the inexorable 难以抑制的, 无法制止的 decline has suddenly plateaued平缓了(plateau to stop increasing or improving after a period of development. inexorable impossible to stop. the inexorable growth of multinational companies. deplorable [dɪˈplɔ:rəb(ə)l] extremely bad and shocking.)... when the pain is, just for a minute, bearable. The problem, of course, is that there's no way of knowing无法知道...that your last good day is your last good day最后的好时光. At the time当时看来, it's just another decent day不错的日子. A quick question for you. Did you ever write that eulogy I asked you to prepare? I may have. Do you think you could find your way down...to the literal Heart of Jesus in the next few minutes? Maybe. Is everything okay? I love you, Hazel Grace. - Can I have the keys?  - Oh. - Where you going? We're gonna eat something.  - I have to go. Hazel, you have to be hungry. You didn't even eat lunch. I'm just not hungry. Hazel, you cannot not eat不能不吃饭. I'm aggressively un-hungry.  Hazel, I know Gus is sick, but you got to take care of yourself. This has nothing to do with Gus. Well, then you've got to stay healthy. Come on, just eat something, honey. "Stay healthy"? Okay, I'm not healthy, and I'm gonna die. Do you realize that? I'm dying, and you're gonna be here... and you're not gonna have anyone to look after, or hover around围在你左右, 晃来晃去... and you're not gonna be a mother anymore, and I'm sorry... but there's nothing I can do about that我无能为力. So, can I please go? Why would you say that to me? Because you said that. What are you talking about? In the ICU. That's not the truth. I was wrong. Even if you died... Even when you die... I'll always be your mother. It's the greatest thing I'll ever be. That is my biggest fear, Mom. When I am gone... you're not gonna have a life anymore. You're just gonna sit and you're gonna stare at walls... or you're gonna off yourselves (  Off yourself 自尽, 自杀 Killing yourself, committing suicide. "dude you are so lame, you need to off yourself". "yea you butchered that you should just off yourself now". ) or... Hazel, honey, we're not gonna do that. Losing you... That is gonna hurt like hell. But you of all people know it's possible to live with pain. You just do it. I'm taking classes in social work. Wait, you're what? You know, if I can take what we've been through...and help other people, maybe counsel families... Mom, how could you not tell me this? We didn't want you to feel abandoned. You guys, This is the best news. You go. 13. Straight ahead, yeah. To your left, a little bit. That's a step, right? Yeah, put your hand out伸出手. There's a podium to your right. Yeah, How you doing? You look ravishing, Hazel Grace. I know, right? What's going on, guys? Tell her, Gus. I wanted to attend my own funeral. I mean, I'm hopeful that I'll be able to attend as a ghost, but... However, just in case it doesn't work out... I decided to plan this pre-funeral. Augustus Waters was a cocky son of a bitch. But we forgave him. Not because of his superhuman good looks... or because he only got 19 years when he should've gotten way more. 18 years, buddy. Dude, come on. Really? I'm assuming you have a little more time, you interrupting爱打岔的 bastard. Interrupt me in the middle of my eulogy. You're supposed to be dead. But when the scientists from the future... come to my house with robot eyes... and they tell me to try them on... I'm gonna tell those scientists to piss off, because... because Gus, I don't even want to see a world without you. I don't want to see a world without Augustus Waters. Then, having made my point表明立场, I'll probably put the robot eyes on... because, you know, they're robot eyes. Sounds awesome. And I don't know... Um... This is just so hard. Godspeed. Hazel, can I get a hand here? To the right, a little bit. Yeah, and turn around. Sit down. There you go. It's down to you全靠你了, 全看你的了, Hazel Grace. My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster... and Augustus Waters was the star-crossed ( 时运不济的. 命运多舛的. 倒霉的. 不被看好的. continuously affected by bad luck. star-crossed lovers. ) love of my life. Ours was an epic love story... and I probably won't be able to get more than a sentence out... without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Like all real love stories... ours will die with us. As it should. You know, I'd kind of hoped that he would be the one eulogizing me. Because there's really no one else... I'm not gonna talk about our love story, because I can't. So, instead, I'm gonna talk about math. I am not a mathematician, but I do know this. There are infinite numbers between zero and one. There's point-one, point-one-two, and point-one-one-two, and... and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between zero and two... or between zero and a million. Some infinities are simply bigger than other infinities. A writer that we used to like taught us that. You know, I want more numbers... than I'm likely to get. do I want more days for Augustus Waters than what he got. But, Gus...my love...I cannot tell you how thankful I am... for our little infinity. Hold on. You gave me a forever你给了我一个永远...within the numbered days在有限的时间里. And for that, I am... I am eternally grateful感激不尽. I love you so much. 12. Augustus Waters died eight days later in the ICU. When the cancer, which was made of him... stopped his heart, which was also made of him. It was unbearable. The whole thing. Every second, worse than the last. One of the first things they ask you in the ER... is to rate your pain on a scale from one to ten. I've been asked this question hundreds of times... and I remember once... when I couldn't catch my breath喘不上气 and it felt like my chest was on fire...the nurse asked me to rate the pain. Though I couldn't speak, I held up nine fingers. Later, when I started feeling better... the nurse came in and she called me a fighter. "You know how I know?" she said. "You called a ten a nine." But that wasn't the truth. I didn't call it a nine because I was brave. The reason I called it a nine was because I was saving my ten. And this was it. This was the great and terrible ten. 14. "I will fear no evil不再害怕任何邪恶, for you are with me... Your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of 当着面 my enemies. You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows. Surely, goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life... and I will dwell in the house of the Lord... forever." Augustus Waters fought hard for many years. His battle was a courageous one, and his strength was a source of inspiration for each and every one of us. What a load of shit, huh, kid? We need to fake-pray假装祈祷 now. Now, we are going to hear from Gus' special friend... Hazel Lancaster. Not that it really matters其实也没有什么, but I was his girlfriend. There's a beautiful quote in Gus' home that reads... "If you want the rainbow, you have to deal with the rain不经历风雨, 怎么见彩虹." Even in his last few days... I didn't believe a word. He was always able to crack a smile. But that's okay. I knew this was the right thing to do. Funerals, I'd decided, are not for the dead. They're for the living. 14. Hey, want some company需要个伴吗? No, I'm okay. I'm just gonna drive for a bit by myself. You spoke beautifully. I'll see you soon. Drive safe. Your boy Waters and I corresponded quite a bit in his last days. Oh. So, you read your fan mail now? I wouldn't exactly call him a fan.He detested(detest [dɪˈtest] to hate someone or something) me. But he was quite insistent I attend his funeral... and tell you what became of Anna and her mother... so here I am. And that's your answer, "Omnis cellula e cellula." "Life comes from life." I'm really not in the mood没有那个兴致. You don't want an explanation? Thank you, though. Have a great life. You remind me of her. I remind a lot of people of a lot of people. My daughter was eight. And she suffered beautifully for so long. She had leukemia like Anna? I'm very sorry for your loss. And I'm sorry for yours. And sorry for ruining your trip. You didn't ruin our trip. We had an amazing trip. Are you familiar with the Trolley Problem? There's a thought experiment in the field of ethics... known as the Trolley Problem. Philippa Foot was an English philosopher... Hazel, I'm trying to explain something to you. I'm trying to give you what you wanted. No, you're not! You are a drunk, and you're a failure... and I need you to get out of my car right now... so that I can go home, and be by myself and grieve! You'll want to read this. I don't want to read anything. Can you just get out of my car? It was a privilege, though, wasn't it? To love him? Gives you an idea how we feel about you. Hazel? There's a friend here to see you. Do you know if it hurt or whatever? Apparently he was struggling for breath for a long time.. and then eventually he just went unconscious. It wasn't great or anything. Dying sucks. Gus really loved you, you know? He wouldn't shut up about it总是说个不停, 喋喋不休. It was annoying. He talked about you so much. I didn't find it that annoying. I know. I know you didn't. Did you get that letter from your author friend? Ew. He's not my friend. How do you know about that? Well, I was talking to him at the cemetery...and he said he came all this way to give that letter to you. Yeah, well, I'm over it. I have no interest in reading another word of that asshole's again. No, he didn't write it. Gus wrote it. Apparently Gus wrote something down and then sent it to Van Houten. 15. Mr. Van Houten, I'm a good person, but a shitty writer. You're a shitty person, but a good writer. I think we'd make a good team. I don't want to ask you for any favors... but if you have the time, and from what I saw据我所见, you have plenty...please fix this for me. It's a eulogy for Hazel. She asked me to write one, and I'm trying. I just... I could use a little flair 我需要一点天份(could use sth: need something前面有解释)(flair [fleə(r)]] 天份, 天资 an attractive, skilful, or interesting way of doing something. She always dresses with flair. have a flair for something to be very skilful at something. Our youngest son has a flair for drawing. ). See, the thing is, we all want to be remembered. But Hazel's different. Hazel knows the truth. She didn't want a million admirers. She just wanted one. And she got it. Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply. And isn't that more than most of us get? When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying... but I didn't want to say so. She was in the ICU, and I snuck in for 10 minutes... and I sat with her, before I got caught. Her eyes were closed. Her skin, pale. But her hands were still her hands. Still warm, and her nails were painted this dark blue-black color...and I just held them握着她的手. And I willed ( will I. to make something happen by wishing for it very strongly. He was convinced he could win if he willed it enough. will someone/something to do something: She sat silently, willing him to continue. I willed myself not to respond to his ridiculous claims. II. 立遗嘱. to formally give someone something after you die by stating it in a will. The estate had been willed to his favourite granddaughter. III. an old word meaning 'to want or intend something to happen'.) myself to imagine a world without us... and what a worthless world that would be. She's so beautiful. You don't get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she's smarter than you... because you know she is. She's funny without ever being mean风趣但不邪恶. I love her. God, I love her. I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don't get to choose没机会选择, 不能选择 if you get hurt in this world...but you do have a say 有发言权 in who hurts you. And I like my choices. I hope she likes hers. Okay, Hazel Grace?