用法学习: 1. bawl/cry (one's) eyes out 大哭 to cry loudly especially for a long time. It's the saddest book I've ever read. I bawled my eyes out at the end. To sob or weep loudly, uncontrollably, and for a long period of time. After we broke up, I just lay on my bed and bawled my eyes out. Indianapolis: Dutch commando dies after shooting outside US hotel: Officials believe the shooting followed a previous altercation including one or multiple other people at another location in the city. The city's mayor told reporters on Monday that the attack may have been a drive-by shooting. "As I understand it there was a scuffle — a kerfuffle — at a bar and the Dutch guardsmen had returned back to their hotel," said Mayor Joe Hogsett. "What they were doing outside I'm not altogether sure — but I'm told the alleged perpetrators did a drive-by shooting and ultimately three were victimised by that shooting." "Always remember, there are two sides to a story," defense attorney KiKi Gaither told The Associated Press. "Clearly things got out of control. And it all comes down to 就看你信谁了 you know, who you believe." According to the affidavit, soldiers told investigators they were walking back to their hotel from a bar when Duncan and his friends bumped into them. Witnesses told police that the soldiers tried to defuse the situation 劝合, 解劝 but that a brief fight broke out before the gunshots were fired from a passing pickup truck. Mears said Duncan has no criminal convictions that would make it illegal for him to carry a gun in Indiana and that others who were with him at the time could still face criminal charges. "I hope no one interprets this as the end of the investigation or that other additional charges against other individuals will not be filed in the future," Mears said. “We are continuing to evaluate everybody's conduct involved." 2. "Running point (run point on something) 带头, 负责" is a generalized usage and conveys minor leadership in a team at work. When there is something to investigate, assess, discover, generate, formulate, organize, etc. and a team is required, then an informal description of the leader would be that "Jones is running point on this." a. to lead the charge. b. to take the lead on a campaign, program or project. c. sometimes used when requesting back-up. etymology: the "point man" is generally the person in charge. The "point guard" in basketball is the player that runs the teams offense. His main objective is to score points. I'm running point on this so I need you to guard for me. This is a difficult project. Who do you have that can run point on this? Niall is a busy man these days, running point on the legal side of things for a huge development in the city. It's a far cry from their heady days at uni when they'd met at a bar and their woeful attempts at hitting on each other had resulted in a ridiculous fumble in the loos. Harry's phone had slid out 滑出, 掉出 of his pocket and ended up in the toilet bowl and in his flailing attempts to save it he'd accidentally clocked Niall in the face with his elbow, nearly knocking him out. They'd decided to cut their losses 断臂求生, 壮士断腕, and shared a few drinks instead, Niall pressing a napkin filled with ice to his bruised cheek and quickly realising they really weren't that attracted to each other anyway. And thus began their beautiful friendship. heady I. affecting you in a strong and pleasant way. A heady drink, atmosphere, or experience strongly affects your senses, for example by making you feel drunk or excited. ...in the heady days just after their marriage. I felt heady and euphoric. the heady scent of jasmine. II. very exciting and making you feel that you can achieve anything you want. the heady freedom of the late 1960s. fumble verb I. If you fumble for something or fumble with something, you try and reach for it or hold it in a clumsy way. She crept from the bed and fumbled for her dressing gown. He fumbled with the buttons at the neck. He fumbled his one-handed attempt to light his cigarette. to try to hold, move, or find something using your hands in a way that is not skillful or graceful. fumble for 摩挲, 摸索: She fumbled for her keys in her purse. fumble with: Robert began to fumble with his buttons. fumble around: He fumbled around in the dark looking for some matches. II. When you are trying to say something, if you fumble for the right words, you speak in a clumsy and unclear way. to say something in a way that is not skillful or effective a fumbled explanation. fumble for words: He stood there, fumbling for words. I fumbled for something to say. He fumbled his lines, not knowing what he was going to say. III. intransitive/transitive to drop a ball, especially a football Smith fumbled at the goal line. flailing I. moving, swinging, or beating wildly like a flail —used especially of a person or a person's limbs The drowning man's flailings soon attracted the lifeguard's attention. They dragged her toward cabin five, while the other campers made way to avoid her flailing feet. Vivid dreams made him lash out at me in his sleep with kicks and flailing arms. II. beset by difficulties. struggling a flailing economy. phoned a friend to vent about his flailing marriage. III. clumsy or ineffectual their flailing 徒劳无功的 attempts/efforts to save the company. flail 乱抓乱挠 verb. If your arms or legs flail or if you flail them about, they wave about in an energetic but uncontrolled way. His arms were flailing in all directions. He gave a choked cry, flailed his arms wildly for a moment, and then went over the edge. He starting flailing around and hitting Vincent in the chest. noun. A flail is a tool which consists of a piece of wood or metal that can swing freely from a handle. Flails are used to beat crops such as corn in order to separate the grain from the rest of the plant. 3. 车撞树: The vehicle collided with a tree at speed, killing three girls, aged 14 and 15 and two boys, aged 15 and 16. All five passengers died at the scene. Dramatic images show how the Nissan was torn into shreds by the crash. at someone's beck and call 任意驱使, 任意差遣, 尽情使唤, 随叫随到 at the service of; obedient to the wishes of . always ready to do whatever someone asks. always willing and able to do whatever someone asks: Go and get it yourself! I'm not at your beck and call, you know. He expects his employees to be at his beck and call day and night. She is at the beck and call of the committee. reverie [ˈrevəri] 遐想, 痴心妄想, 神游, 思绪, 走神, 心思神往, 白日梦 (snap out of your reverie) pleasant thoughts that make you forget what you are doing or what is happening around you. A reverie is a state of imagining or thinking about pleasant things, as if you are dreaming. The announcer's voice brought Holden out of his reverie. The ring of the bell disturbed her reverie. My reverie was interrupted as I felt WangYibo's hand touched mine. vocabulary: If you're relaxing on the beach, dreaming of how you will never have to get up and go back to work, you're engaged in a reverie, or pleasant daydream. There's nothing wrong with reverie, but if you follow its path into English, you'll see how closely it is connected to madness. The noun is from French rêverie, from a Middle French word meaning "wild speech, delirium," from rever "to roam, speak wildly." Middle French rever is also the source of English rave, as in raving mad. halting 讲话大喘气的, 结结巴巴的 with a lot of pauses between words or movements, often because of a lack of confidence. a halting conversation. If you speak or do something in a halting way, you speak or do it slowly and with a lot of hesitation, usually because you are uncertain about what to say or do next. In a halting voice she said that she wished to make a statement. The officer replied in halting German. She spoke haltingly of her deep upset and hurt. His mother spoke no English at all (or refused to), and his father spoke English only haltingly. imposition [ˌɪmpəˈzɪʃ(ə)n] I. countable usually singular an unfair or unreasonable situation that you are expected to accept. something that is imposed unfairly on someone. Expecting employees to work longer hours for the same pay is a huge imposition 强加于人的要求, 勉强人的要求, 勉为其难的要求, 不合理的要求. 过分要求. And then something inside me realized that being "obedient and polite and deeply respectful" was hardly an imposition. I had no desire to be rude to anyone after all. II. uncountable the introduction of something such as a new law or a new system. imposition of: the imposition of economic sanctions. sexual imposition in some US states, the criminal act of annoying or harassing another individual in a sexual way Sexual imposition is a sexual offense which is governed by state laws, which vary by state. vanquish [ˈvæŋkwɪʃ] 被打败, 溃败的, 一败涂地的 verb. To vanquish someone means to defeat them completely in a battle or a competition. to defeat someone or something completely. A happy ending is only possible because the hero has first vanquished the dragons. With knowledge and wisdom, evil could be vanquished on this earth. It seemed like his lips curled into a knowing 局内人的, 懂得了的, 心知肚明的, 会心的, 意味深长的, 心领神会的 smile; his teacher had just been vanquished and converted into his pupil! When I made it back to class, Mr. Franklin gave me a knowing look 心知肚明的, 会心的 but dismissed me back to my seat. When the bell rang for our morning break, he asked me to stay behind. spin/turn on one's heel 掉转头, 掉转身, 转过身去 (turn around in place 原地转身) to turn away from someone in a very quick or sudden way He told us he had nothing more to say, then he turned on his heel and walked away 转身走了. To suddenly leave or depart. After walking in on an obviously private conversation, I turned on my heel and stepped right back out of the room. Several high-profile sponsors have turned on their heels following the athlete's controversial statements. I was about to ask if I could fix him breakfast tomorrow when he said goodnight, turned on his heel, and walked out to go to bed. I resolved 下定决心 to wake up especially early to bring back some fresh baozi and surprise the family with a tasty breakfast. in place I. to exist and be capable of being used. If something such as a law, a policy, or an administrative structure is in place, it is working or able to be used. Similar legislation is already in place in Wales. They're offended by the elaborate security measures the police have put in place. We didn't have the systems in place to deal with so many orders. A staff of four counsellors is in place to handle calls to the new hotline. put something in place: We need to put safeguards in place to prevent this type of accident occurring again. II. in the correct position 放好. The glass was held in place by a few pieces of sellotape. The chairs were not yet in place 放好, 放到地方 for the concert. III. American ( = on the spot British) without leaving the position that you are in. We had to run in place for five minutes. in place of = in something's place instead of something or someone The idea was to abandon the communist model, and create a market economy in its place 取代, 取替, 代替. In place of ordinary light bulbs, you could use fluorescent lamps. shelter in place 原地避难, 原地待命, 原地暂避 to stay where you are, because of some danger. to make a shelter out of the place you are in (for example, your home, school or workplace) at the time of the emergency. It is a way for you to make your home or another building as safe as possible to protect yourself until help arrives. If you are told to shelter in place you would follow these guidelines. Some passengers had to shelter in place in stopped subway cars while the storm passed. The basics of a shelter-in-place order during the coronavirus pandemic are fairly clear: Stay at home. in a ... place 在...状态 used to talk about someone's feelings, situation, or mental condition: I feel like I'm in a better place about who I am. Remember that he's just lost his wife and he's in a vulnerable place. We're in this weird place where we don't know what's going to happen. I'm just not in a place where I can think about work right now. 4. feel a rush of As the sun enters your sign, you'll feel a rush of new confidence 一股信心 and energy. I do classes like yoga and pilates, and can't wait to feel that rush of endorphins. You feel a rush of confident energy and get a chance to do things you believe in. The bedrooms are still cool, but you can feel the rush of warm air coming up to the landing. After a rush of activity 忙活一阵, 一阵忙乱, 一阵匆忙 they left together and I carried the steamer basket over to the family dinner table to eat by myself. Sitting alone at the large family dining table, I noticed a few crumbs, and so I brought a rag 抹布 over to clean up. Thereafter, everywhere I turned, I saw a little something that needed cleaning. Despite how much I disliked keeping my own apartment tidy, it became a challenge and even a thrill to make their home as perfectly clean as possible. By the time they were back from dim sum, they found me on my hands and knees scrubbing the kitchen floor. blithe [blʌɪð] 漫不经心的( lithe 优雅的, 从容的 ) adj showing a casual and cheerful indifference considered to be callous or improper. "a blithe disregard for the rules of the road". a. [disapproval] You use blithe to indicate that something is done casually, without serious or careful thought. It does so with blithe 无所谓的, 漫不经心的 disregard for best scientific practice. Your editorial blithely ignores the hard facts. He appears blithely unaware of the disastrous effects of the new system. II. Someone who is blithe is cheerful and has no serious problems. She said 'hi' with the blithe assurance of someone who knew how much she'd been missed. Had they not left so quickly, I probably would have blithely assumed I was entitled to sit down and eat a meal with them without asking. I made a mental note always to take my food to my room and eat it there, unless I was invited. deferential [ˌdefəˈrenʃ(ə)l] 恭恭敬敬的 showing that you respect someone and want to treat them politely. Someone who is deferential is polite and respectful towards someone else. They like five-star hotels and deferential treatment. We have become less deferential to authority. The old man spoke deferentially. "Yes of course, sir," I said deferentially [ˌdefəˈrenʃ(ə)l] 恭恭敬敬的. As I said "sir", my eyes flicked to WangYibo knowingly ( I. 心照不宣的, (tacit understanding) 心领神会的. 意会的. in a way that shows you know or understand something. Jan looked at me knowingly. II. if you do something knowingly 故意的, 明知故犯的 you do it deliberately even though you know that what you are doing is wrong or illegal. If you knowingly do something wrong, you do it even though you know it is wrong. He repeated that he had never knowingly taken illegal drugs. Had her grandmother knowingly taken the money? ). I'd taken to calling the young boy sir first, and I wanted him to know that with his parents gone, I understood that he really was to be the master. take to I. begin or fall into the habit of doing something. to start doing something as a habit. take to doing something 开始喜欢做某事: Recently he's taken to wearing a hat. "he took to hiding some secret supplies in his desk". II. form a liking for someone. to begin to like someone or something I took to John immediately. "Mrs Brady never took to Moran".
Story: I yelped 惊呼 and jumped out of bed, only then to remember I was wearing nothing but tighty whiteys. I blushed and held my hands over my groin, expecting WangYibo would duck out of the room 溜出去, 躲出去( duck out I. to leave a place, especially in a way that is not noticed by other people She ducked out for a smoke. II. If you duck out of something 躲避, 躲开 that you are supposed to do, you avoid doing it. to avoid doing something that you were intending to do or had promised to do. George ducked out of his forced marriage to a cousin. You can't duck out once you've taken on a responsibility.) in modesty. Instead he stood his ground, making no effort to hide that he was looking over my nearly naked body. In all likelihood he had never seen a white man this intimately, and I felt myself being unapologetically inspected 检视, 审视. "Ok, let me get dressed," I stammered 结结巴巴的. "I'm really quite hungry," WangYibo said insistently 坚持说. I took the hint that 收到暗示 I was late enough as it was, and getting dressed was a luxury. "Of course! Breakfast coming right up 马山好, 马上到, sir." I straightened my back 直起身来, 直起腰来 and uncovered my groin as if this was all in the line of work 工作的一部分. WangYibo's eyes went straight to the bulge in my briefs and lingered there. Seeing and literally feeling a young boy looking at me this way and making no effort to hide myself made me start to stiffen. I hastened to the kitchen, if only to get away from his stare that was making me grow hard. From the kitchen I called over my shoulder, "What'll it be for breakfast this morning, sir?" Willingly calling a Chinese boy 11 years my junior 'sir' while parading about the kitchen in tight briefs only increased my arousal. "An omelet." WangYibo parked himself on a stool by the opposite side of the kitchen island and watched me work. With my back to him at the stove, he couldn't see that my cock had grown fully hard, and for modesty's sake I was hoping I could get it to deflate before I had to turn around and serve his plate... but it didn't. My endowment, honestly speaking, is mediocre, but even so, it created an obvious tent. I gave in to both the thrill and the inevitability that I would not try to hide it, and sure enough when I turned around, WangYibo stared at it with his deep brown perceptive ( I. able to notice or understand things quickly and easily. If you describe a person or their remarks or thoughts as perceptive, you think that they are good at noticing or realizing things, especially things that are not obvious. He was one of the most perceptive U.S. political commentators. ...a very perceptive critique of Wordsworth. The stages in her love affair with Harry are perceptively written. The task I have in mind requires little more than perceptiveness and a good memory. Children can be amazingly perceptive 明白, 看懂 about adults' moods. II. a perceptive remark or piece of writing is intelligent and shows good judgment. It was a balanced and perceptive report. ) eyes. I felt a small ooze of precum starting. "I need a napkin," he said matter of factly. "Where are they, sir?" WangYibo sighed, hopped down off the stool, and walked around the kitchen island and stood along side me, so close our bodies were almost touching 几乎触碰到. It became obvious that I was standing right in front of the drawer where the napkins were kept, so I backed up a step 退后一步, 后退一步. WangYibo reached in to open the drawer in front of me, and his hand brushed up against the sideways facing shaft stretching my briefs. I shivered, and he laughed. After retrieving a napkin, his hand brushed even more deliberately against my bulge. "You should just take those off," he chided ( chide [tʃaɪd] to criticize someone, or to speak to them in an angry way because you think their behavior is wrong. If you chide someone, you speak to them angrily because they have done something wicked or foolish. Cross chided himself for worrying. He gently chided the two women. chide someone for something: The company was chided for its lack of original research. ). I felt my face flush bright red. To be naked in front of a 14 year old boy? When I'm fully hard? When I can already feel precum starting to ooze? That... was... so... wrong. But then I remembered his father's words: " WangYibo will be the master of the house". And the line in the contract "The Servant is expected to be obedient...". In that moment, I realized I had no choice but to do what my horniness wanted me to do anyway. I hooked my thumbs into the waistband and pulled down until my cock sprang free and swayed between my hips. WangYibo's eyes were fixed on my member, affording me no privacy. I stood there, with my briefs half way down my thighs, letting the young boy look at me. My heart was pounding and I could feel my body start to tremble. At last he spoke. "It's rather small." It was a crippling blow to any man's ego, but I knew it was true probably true. At 5" fully erect, my member was supposedly average for Americans, but on a 6'2" frame like mine, it looked downright tiny. I cleared my throat and decided to defend the thoroughgoing ( adj. I. involving or attending to every detail or aspect of something. If you describe a piece of work as thoroughgoing, you approve of it because it has been carefully and thoroughly put together. ...a thoroughgoing review of prison conditions. ...this splendidly thoroughgoing biography. "a thoroughgoing reform of the whole economy". II. exemplifying a specified characteristic fully; absolute. You use thoroughgoing to emphasize that someone or something is fully or completely the type of person or thing specified. a thoroughgoing change in the methods of dealing with the problem. ...a thoroughgoing conservative. ...readers who are unhappy with such thoroughgoing materialism. "a thoroughgoing 完全地, 十足的 chocoholic". ) averageness of my manhood, but before I could speak, WangYibo said, "Take them all the way off." Without protest, I obediently let the briefs slide down my thighs, and stepped out of them. "Mother and father will be gone all week. I want you to stay naked all the time now. You are the servant. You must." It was the first time he called me a servant to my face. My cock twitched and a small string of precum started to hang down. The sound that came out of my mouth surprised even me. It wasn't a protest. It wasn't agreement. It was just a whimpering moan as I gave in to the reality that for this week I was now a Chinese boy's naked American plaything. After WangYibo scrutinized my cock and declared it small, after he ordered 命令 me to remain naked for the rest of his parents' absence, and after my defeated, aroused whimper of acquiescence to this order, the most amazing thing happened. He took his eyes off of me, returned to his stool at the island counter, and concentrated on eating the omelet I had made for him. I'd done everything he'd asked, obediently stripped naked in front of a young boy, revealing my erection... only to gain a moment of his fascination? It must have meant he was simply not aroused by me as I was of him. I cringed again, forced to admit another layer of my conceit and replace it with humility. Why did I assume he would be aroused by me at all? Especially after he saw in short order ( in short order without delay; quickly. quickly and without any problems. immediately; rapidly. "after the killing the camp had been shut down in short order". I managed to get her out of the room in short order.) my cock was nothing impressive? It was utter arrogance to assume or even hope that a Chinese boy would desire an American man. "You're just an American servant, you idiot," I said to myself, mouthing the words but staying silent. WangYibo didn't even have a comment on his breakfast. "Would you like some pepper on your omelet, sir?" I asked. He shook his head no without saying anything. My hard cock started to soften and shrink in defeat. Perhaps I was being kept naked only to put me in my place. How selfish of me even to be aroused. At last, WangYibo looked up from his plate. "The plants need watering today," he said matter of factly 公事公办的, 一本正经的, 没有表情的. In China, it's a great way to get on the wrong side of the law. I crouched down below the wall of the balcony and huddled against the cold, waiting for rescue. After what seemed like an eternity, WangYibo passed through the living room. I hurriedly tapped on the glass and got his attention, and he ambled ( amble [ˈæmb(ə)l] 悠闲地走, 闲逛, 溜达 to walk in a slow relaxed way. When you amble, you walk slowly and in a relaxed manner. Slowly they ambled back to the car. We ambled along in front of the houses. ...an afternoon's amble around the oldest parts of Paris. Visitors can amble along miles of winding trails. mosey [ˈmoʊzi] 慢悠悠的走, 不慌不忙地走, 溜达, 闲逛, 漫无目的的走
to walk somewhere very slowly, often without a purpose. If you mosey
somewhere, you go there slowly, often without any particular purpose. He usually moseys into town for no special reason. mosey around/down etc.: I'll mosey around the store.) over to unlock and open the door. "Sorry, sir, I--" I began. "You were careless 太不小心了," he interrupted disapprovingly. His eyes went to my cock, which by now because of the chilled air had retreated to a miniscule ( minuscule = minuscule 小小的 [ˈmɪnəˌskjul] extremely small in size or amount. If you describe something as minuscule, you mean that it is very small. The film was shot in 17 days, a minuscule amount of time. The risk to public health is minuscule. ) nub ( 最根本的. 最本质的 the most basic or essential part of something. The nub of a situation, problem, or argument is the central and most basic part of it. That, I think, is the nub of the problem. Here we reach the nub of the argument. The real nub of the problem is public indifference. ). His lips seemed to curl into a slight smile. "Are you cold?" he asked, not taking his eyes off of my embarrassingly small manhood. "Yes, sir." I said, visibly shivering. WangYibo only nodded. At last he said, "I'm going to take a bath." For a brief moment, I deceived myself into imagining his bath might be shared with me, an offer for me to warm up. "You're just an American servant, you little-dicked idiot" I reminded myself. Sure enough, he went off to the large bathroom, closed the door, and began drawing a bath only for himself. I walked over to the kitchen and cleaned up the plates left over from breakfast. Vigorously 用力的, 使劲的 scrubbing the counter naked, my shrunken cock jingled between my legs like a dainty 小小的 little bell. The best I could do to warm myself was run my hands under the hot water in the sink. Then I heard WangYibo calling for me from the bathroom. I walked up to the door. "What is it, sir?" "I forgot to turn on the heated towel rack," he explained. "Where is it?" "In here," he answered with some derision (where else would it be?). "May I come in, sir?" I asked, realizing that this would mean me being naked in the same room as my naked Chinese master. "Yes," he responded slowly, a 'why else would I have asked you?' tone in his voice. I popped open the door and was immediately met by his piercing, perceptive, dark brown almost shaped eyes locking on to mine 眼睛对上. He was sitting in the tub, the top half of his torso above the water, wet and shiny. In the brief moment before I looked away, I caught a glimpse of his perfectly tan and smooth chest, and the crisp if still-developing 仍在发育的 curve of his pectorals. Two dark nipples stood in stark, beautiful contrast to his silky skin. That was all I saw before I lowered my eyes to the floor demurely(demure [dɪˈmjʊə] 端庄的, 害羞的, 羞涩的, 脸皮薄的 adj [approval] (of a woman or her behaviour) reserved, modest, and shy. (especially of women) quiet and well behaved: She gave him a demure smile. "a demure little wife who sits at home minding the house".
If you describe someone, usually a young woman, as demure, you mean
they are quiet and rather shy, usually in a way that you like and find
appealing, and behave very correctly. She's very demure and sweet. The luscious Miss Wharton gave me a demure but knowing smile. Demure clothes do not reveal your body and they give the impression that you are shy and behave correctly. [written] ...a demure high-necked white blouse. She was demurely dressed in a black woollen suit. "Lately I've been watching Kimberly and she's been someone that I really gravitate to as a mum.
So it's a tough choice between Kourtney and Kim," she admitted during
the episode. Kourtney -- who is parent to Mason, 8, Penelope, 6, and
Reign, 3 -- made it clear she should be her niece's guardian. ), hurried to the heated towel rack, and turned it on. Then I turned around and left the bathroom quickly, closing the door behind me. WangYibo said nothing. I sat down on the couch in the living room, too stunned by this brief encounter to find something productive to do. I curled my long legs up beside me and huddled, doing my best to warm up despite being naked. I replayed the image of WangYibo in my mind's eye 在心里. He was so confident to be bare chested in front of me. And I could see why. Those pecs of his! Masculine and defined, even if they were still shallow and underdeveloped in his youth, they were so... Oh god, I thought, his youth. He's a 14 year old boy! My cock was whipsawed ( whipsaw I. cut with a whipsaw. "he was whipsawing lumber". II. informal 被双重击败. subject to two difficult situations or opposing pressures at the same time. "the army has been whipsawed by a shrinking budget and a growing pool of recruits". whipsawed 双重打击的, 面对双重压力的 adj. Stock Exchange subjected to a double loss, as when an investor has bought a stock at a high price soon before it declines and then, in order to make good the loss, sells it short before it advances. ): my attraction to my brief glimpse was so powerful that my cock wanted to stiffen, and yet the shame of how forbidden such an attraction was acted to deflate it. Instead I sat on the couch, stunned, numb, ashamed, wanting to run away. After a while, I heard him call me again. I rushed obediently to the door. "Yes sir?" "Come in." An excited feeling of dread came over me. This meant I was going to get another look at his magnificent young body. This also meant I would be forced to reconcile the emotions right in front of him. I let myself in, looking straight at the ground. "Are you afraid to look at me?" he challenged. "You are allowed," he offered, sounding magnanimous 有风度的, 大方的 ( [mæɡˈnænɪməs] willing to forgive people, or willing to be kind and fair. If you are magnanimous, you behave kindly and generously towards someone, especially after defeating them or being treated badly by them. I was prepared to be magnanimous, prepared to feel compassion for him. He was a man capable of magnanimous gestures.). I looked up. He was beautiful. With his invitation, this time I took a longer look. The top of his abs were also out of the water, and showed the beginning of furrows ( furrow [ˈfɜroʊ] noun. I. 渠沟. A furrow is a long, thin line in the earth which a farmer makes in order to plant seeds or to allow water to flow along. a line that a farmer digs in the dirt with a plow where a crop will be planted. II. A furrow is a deep, fairly wide line in the surface of something. Dirt bike trails crisscrossed the grassy furrows. III. A furrow 皱纹 is a deep fold or line in the skin of someone's face. ...the deep furrows that marked the corners of his mouth. verb. If someone furrows their brow or forehead 皱眉头 or if it furrows, deep folds appear in it because the person is annoyed, unhappy, or confused. if your brow furrows, or if you furrow it, deep lines appear on your forehead, for example because you are concentrating or worrying My bank manager furrowed his brow, fingered his calculator and finally pronounced 'Aha!' Midge's forehead furrowed as she saw that several were drinking. Fatigue and stress quickly result in a dull complexion and a furrowed brow. ) and peaks of 6 pack abs, born not of powerful musculature, but of a slender body that had not an ounce of unneeded fat. They called my eye lower and lower, until I found myself looking through the surface of the water, drawn to what he had between his legs. I could see the dark color of a small tuft ( tuft [tʌft] 一小撮, 一小片 A tuft of something such as hair or grass is a small amount of it which is growing together in one place or is held together at the bottom. several individual pieces of grass, hair, feathers, or fibers that are all growing or joined together at the bottom end tufts of reddish hair. He had a small tuft of hair on his chin. ...tufts of wool torn from sheep by bushes and brambles.) of his pubic hair, and then the shape of his young cock floating limp between his legs under water. My whole body went numb. Perhaps the refraction 折射 ( the apparent bending of a beam of light when it enters a medium where its speed is different. the change in direction of a propagating wave, such as light or sound, in passing from one medium to another in which it has a different velocity. refract verb. When a ray of light or a sound wave refracts or is refracted, the path it follows bends at a particular point, for example when it enters water or glass. if a surface such as water or glass refracts light, light travels in a slightly different direction after it hits the surface, so that the surface appears to bend it As we age, the lenses of the eyes thicken, and thus refract light differently. ...surfaces that cause the light to reflect and refract. ...the refraction of the light on the dancing waves. ) of the surface water was playing tricks on me, but his boyhood equipment seemed to be just the same size as my full grown manhood. Was that why he had commented that I seemed small? It almost made my American cock feel as if it was shrinking into me. Before my brain had any time to wrestle with this consideration, WangYibo quickly stood up and stepped out of the tub. His body shimmered as water sheeted off his perfectly smooth, tan skin. Even despite the fact that his growth spurt 猛蹿, 个子蹿高 was still ahead of him, he stood a surprising 5'10" tall, sleek and slender, but with muscles starting to fill out in a way that promised to become truly powerful as he grew older. Both his forearms and calves showed subtle but corded muscles as he moved and balanced himself, and his torso was just beginning to develop a slight V shape. The full panorama of his crisp young pecs and flat abs was now easy to see in one glance. And then I saw his young cock and the numb feeling I'd had before turned into a sizzling feeling of emasculation and inadequacy. Though it was by no means large, without a doubt this 14 year old boy's fully soft cock dangled heavier and thicker 更粗 than my own, and his ballsack was round and prominent 醒目的, 显眼的. I couldn't look away. The part of me that knew I should avoid even looking at a boy of this age naked wilted, and arousal flooded me. I stared at his superior endowment and let it crush my ego. As he stood naked and wet, in control, confident in his prowess and inviting me to admire his Chinese body, I stood naked and trembling, a deer caught in the headlights as my inhibition 克制 gave way and my cock rapidly stiffened to full disappointingly average American hardness, being scrutinized all the while. He had a front row seat to my collapse into a full grown man that can't resist the seductive beauty of a young boy. A young Chinese boy. A young Chinese master. And his power over me grew immeasurably. "I'm just a tiny-dicked American servant pedo idiot," I said to myself, as I felt my hard cock bobbing in syncopation ( syncopation [ˌsɪŋkəˈpeɪʃ(ə)n] Syncopation is the quality that music has when the weak beats in a bar are stressed instead of the strong ones. a type of musical rhythm in which the weak beats are emphasized instead of the strong beats There was some nice syncopation and it had a good swing to it. It was jazz music he loved, its syncopations. syncopated [ˈsɪŋkəˌpeɪtɪd] syncopated sounds or movements emphasize the weak beats instead of the strong beats syncopated dance rhythms. ) with my racing heartbeat. This time the phrase was not a way to chastise myself, but to revel in what I truly was. "I'm just a tiny-dicked American servant pedo idiot." The thought continued to echo off the walls of my head. They created a sickening combination of excitement and shame. With time, as I stood totally naked, totally aroused in front of WangYibo, the shame grew stronger. I wished he would stop looking at me. I wished I could stop looking at him. Simply being here with him was turning me into something I didn't want to be. Something I shouldn't be. But wait. Maybe I was aroused not by him, but by my powerlessness? I hadn't made this encounter happen, he had. An hour ago, before I woke up and accidentally jumped out of bed in my skivvies, I never even dreamed of growing an erection in front of WangYibo, or any boy his age. The only time our bodies had touched, it was when his hand brushed against my briefs. If I could just keep things from going any further, I'd be nothing more than an obedient servant, just like my contract said I should be. My nakedness was just a form of obedience, wasn't it? There was nothing wrong with being obedient. Maybe my cock only stiffened from being servile? If so, it was only an indication that I was committed to my new job. "I'm just an American servant," I said myself, downgrading my self-flagellation ( flagellation [ˌflædʒəˈleɪʃ(ə)n] 鞭刑 (caning 新加坡鞭刑) I. the practice of hitting yourself with a whip as a religious punishment. Flagellation is the act of beating yourself or someone else, usually as a religious punishment. There is a ceremony of prayer and flagellation before the dancing begins. II. the practice of hitting someone with a whip for sexual excitement. flagellate [ˈflædʒɪˌleɪt] 鞭打 to whip; scourge; flog. ). That's all. Not a pedophile by any means. The rationalization wrapped around me like a warm blanket, something I was in need of since I still hadn't warmed up from my time trapped naked out on the balcony. And then WangYibo spoke. "You should dry me off 擦干 now (towel someone off 用毛巾擦干)( dry off 干掉 if something dries off, or if you dry it off, all the water dries or is wiped from its surface. If something dries off or if you dry it off, the moisture on its surface disappears or is removed. They are then scrubbed with clean water and left to dry off for an hour or two in a warm room. When the bath water started to cool I got out, dried myself off, and dressed. Wash the salad and leave it to dry off. dry yourself off: He got out of the shower and dried himself off. )," he said, flicking his eyes over at the towels that had warmed up on the heated towel rack, then back to me. He stood in front of me, naked and dripping. I felt a lump in the pit of my stomach! Well, that was a complication 复杂化了 ( I. countable usually plural 并发症. something that makes a medical condition more dangerous or difficult to treat. A complication is a medical problem that occurs as a result of another illness or disease. Blindness is a common complication of diabetes. He died of complications from a heart attack. Some people develop complications after an operation. II. 问题复杂化. countable/uncountable something that makes a process or activity more difficult to do, deal with, or understand. A complication is a problem or difficulty that makes a situation harder to deal with. The age difference was a complication to the relationship. An added complication is the growing concern for the environment. ). There was no way I could carry out the order without violating the boundary I had just a moment ago set for myself. I didn't want to be disobedient, but I needed to stall for time. "Oh, I'm sure you could do that better than I can... can't you?" I heard myself ask. My voice was plaintive 悲哀的, 悲伤的 ( [ˈpleɪntɪv] a plaintive sound is high and sad. A plaintive sound or voice sounds sad. They lay on the firm sands, listening to the plaintive cry of the seagulls. Her voice was small and plaintive. 'Why don't we do something?' Davis asked plaintively. a plaintive melody/cry. ) and yet my cock had grown painfully hard as I realized how trapped I was in this situation. I was a freight train with its brakes out, heading towards an invisible boundary made of nothing but fragile glass. "I want you to dry me off," WangYibo said, this time more emphatically. God. I needed to keep this from happening! "I don't think your parents would want me doing that, sir" I said, as if trying to keep him from getting in trouble. His face suddenly showed annoyance. "Dry me off now, servant!" he snapped 怒到. I felt numb. Until now, all his orders had been framed as requests or suggestions. The most biting ( I. biting wind or cold is so cold that it makes you feel very uncomfortable. Biting wind or cold is extremely cold. used to describe weather that is extremely cold, especially when it causes you physical pain: a biting wind. biting cold. ...a raw, biting northerly wind. Antarctic air brought biting cold to southern Chile on Thursday. II. a biting remark, criticism 伤人话, etc. is cruel and unkind. Biting criticism or wit is very harsh or unkind, and is often caused by such feelings as anger or dislike. used to describe words or people that criticize someone or something, usually in an unkind way: He made some biting remarks about the whole occasion. a biting wit. ...a furore caused by the author's biting satire on the Church. This was the most biting criticism made against her. ) thing he'd done to me was to ignore me. Before, when his mother had called me a servant in Chinese, he'd been more diplomatic in his translation. Now he snapped at me and called me a servant to my face. I felt very disappointed in myself that I'd forced him to force me. "Yes, sir. Sorry, sir!" I quickly walked over to the towell rack and pulled off one of the luxurious white towels. As the warmed fabric touched my skin I fought back against the selfish desire to wrap it around myself to finally warm up. Instead, I walked over behind him cautiously, and began to dry his spiky black hair. I stood at arm's length behind him to ensure that my body could not inadvertently brush against his. WangYibo stood passively as I worked his hair dry. Then I slowly lowered the fabric to dry off his neck, and then his shoulders. It wasn't long before my arms started to feel the exhaustion of being fully extended. I was treating the young boy as if he was radioactive. I took a few steps closer and proceeded to dab the towel down his back. The very subtle v-shape of his torso was more evident from behind, and I had the sense that as he grew older, if he was disciplined, he could develop impressive upper body strength. The vertebrae of his spine made subtle, sensuous ripples under the silky, smooth, tan skin of his back. After a moment of drying each undulation 起起伏伏 ( undulate [ˈʌndʒəˌleɪt] to move gently up and down in the shape of waves on the ocean. Something that undulates has gentle curves or slopes, or moves gently and slowly up and down or from side to side in an attractive manner. As we travel south, the countryside begins to undulate. His body slowly undulated in time to the music. ...gently undulating 起起伏伏的 hills. adulation (adulate verb) [ˌædʒəˈleɪʃ(ə)n] great praise or admiration, especially for someone who is famous. to flatter or praise obsequiously. ) off delicately, like I was applying paint to a canvas, I hurried on and dried lower still ( used for emphasizing that although something is big, good, bad, etc., something else is even bigger, better, worse, etc. still bigger/better/worse/more interesting etc.: The freezing cold weather made our task still more difficult. It would be nice to see Audrey again, and it would be still nicer if she could bring the children. worse/better/larger etc. still: Greg's medical expenses are a massive drain and, worse still, he may lose his job. still more/further used for emphasizing that an amount, increase, reduction, etc. is even more than the amount already mentioned. Fuel prices could rise still further in the coming months. better yet/still used when you are adding a new idea that you think is better than a good one already mentioned Come for a weekend or, better yet, come for a whole week. the still of the night 夜的寂静 the part of the night when everything is very quiet and nothing is happening. ). Now I faced my most challenging test yet. To dry off his butt. It was fairly flat, and tapered nicely into his lithe but slender legs( lithe [laɪð]
脚步轻的, 身体柔软的, 体态轻盈的. 体态优雅的 举止优雅的, moving and bending in a graceful way. A lithe
person is able to move and bend their body easily and gracefully. ...a lithe young gymnast. His walk was lithe and graceful. He was as lithe and strong as an athlete. blithe [blʌɪð] adj showing a casual and cheerful indifference considered to be callous or improper. "a blithe disregard for the rules of the road". a. [disapproval] You use blithe to indicate that something is done casually, without serious or careful thought. It
does so with blithe 无所谓的, 漫不经心的 disregard for best scientific practice.
Your editorial blithely ignores the hard facts. He appears blithely
unaware of the disastrous effects of the new system. II. Someone who is blithe is cheerful and has no serious problems. She said 'hi' with the blithe assurance of someone who knew how much she'd been missed. Had they not left so quickly, I probably would have blithely
assumed I was entitled to sit down and eat a meal with them without
asking. I made a mental note always to take my food to my room and eat
it there, unless I was invited.). If he ever took to doing squats, I thought, his butt would really shine. Nevertheless it felt firm and youthful in my hands as I clasped it through the thick, fluffy towel. Lower and lower I dried until I had to kneel down on the floor to dry off his calves 小腿 and finally his feet. Still kneeling behind him, I was staring at the back of his calves while I toweled off 拿毛巾擦干 the tops of his feet. As I did, he turned around in place 原地转过来. Now I was looking at the front of his shins ( The front part of the human leg below the knee ). Clearly, he was satisfied with what I'd done with his backside, and was ready for me to work my way back up, taking care of his front. I kept staring at his feet as I knelt. I knew what was in front of me. If I lifted my head it would be directly in front of my face. I couldn't bear to do it -- seeing his cock up close would be too much for me to resist, and if I couldn't resist it... I kept drying his feet as if I was massaging them. Maybe he'd consider the job done and walk away? "You're not done yet," he said, giving me no way out 没有退路, 无路可退, 无路可走. So I started drying slowly up the front of his legs, raising my gaze slowly only as far as I had to to supervise my work. His knees. His thighs. Higher and higher. And then I saw his balls. Hairless, round... and with no cock dangling in front of them. I gasped and looked up, and my vision collapsed to a tunnel. Kneeling in front of him, I could see WangYibo had grown fully hard, obviously in response to my touch or perhaps just my obedience. His shaft was swollen and thick, laced with a few veins. It was slightly darker than his tan skin, which together with its girthiness gave it an ominously powerful look. Despite the fact that he was only 14, it was clearly thicker than mine. Heavier than mine. And slightly longer than mine. It stood up so straight it almost touched his hairless belly. It was framed by a few jet black pubes which were natural but hadn't had the chance to grow very long. The dark cockhead was sleek and tapered, like the front of a torpedo, but did not even fully push out of the foreskin. His hood was stretched thin and tight by the glans 龟头 that emerged 露出头, 露出来, 探出头, 探头, which almost made it look like it was too big to fit his own foreskin. "Oh god." It escaped as a whimpering moan. "What's wrong?" WangYibo asked in a tone of mild confusion. "I feel so... small," I admitted in a moment of defeated, unguarded 没有戒备的, 毫无防备的 honesty. He didn't seem to care. "You should dry it too." There was no way to dry it, to feel his cock in my hand even with a towel between me and it, and come up with a fiction that I wasn't drawn to this young boy. But I did it anyway. I brought the towel to his Chinese torpedo and started to dry it. Instinctively, I stroked his shaft back and with the towel the same way I would stroke my own cock as I jacked off. I was no stranger to jacking my own cock, but when I did it to him, I felt its superior heft ( heft [heft] I. the weight of something or someone. The heft of something is its weight or bulk. ...a friendly wireless Internet gadget about the size and heft of a thick pork chop. I prefer a 10 inch pan with a little heft 重量 to it – not one of those flimsy cheapo jobs. II. power or strength. If something such as an idea or argument has heft, it has the power to influence or impress people. Goldstone wished Tom Hill were there to add heft to his argument. The 155-page American edition of the book packs the intellectual heft of a much longer text. When you combine these skills with his considerable intellectual heft and business knowledge, it makes for one great package. verb. I. If you heft something, you lift it upward. to lift something heavy He hefted my very heavy suitcase onto his back like a sack of potatoes. Emmy straightened, hefting her burden. He hefted the heavy camera up onto his shoulder. II. to lift and hold something, especially a weapon It feels as if you are holding history in your hands when hefting these shotguns. hefty adj. [informal] I. Hefty means large in size, weight, or amount. large and heavy Richard is a really hefty guy. She was quite a hefty woman. If he is found guilty he faces a hefty fine. a hefty amount of money 丰厚的 is a large and impressive amount a hefty sum/fine/bonus. II. 用力的 A hefty movement is done with a lot of force. Lambert gave Luckwell a hefty shove to send him on his way. ) and its jaw-dropping solidity. There was simply no way to stop from becoming what I was trying not to become. Defeat was imminent. I was the Kuomintang, beaten back further and further by Mao's mighty army. In my mind, I imagined surrendering completely to Mao by lunging forward 扑过去 to take his young boycock in my mouth. I moved the towell away. His cock sprang out and swayed mere inches from my face. I was going to swallow that Chinese torpedo! And then he spoke. "Now, dry the rest of me." His words snapped me out of my reverie. How crazy I had been to let the lust almost overtake me. Never should a servant do something so bold without his master asking him to! In a daze, I stood up on rubbery 瘫软的 legs in front of WangYibo and started drying off his flat stomach and shallow budding pectorals. I finished my work by giving his frizzy black hair one more pass. As I did, I felt something silky brush against my hard cock. I gasped and dropped the towel and we both looked down. We were standing so close that his swollen 14 year old Chinese cock was pressed against my full-grown American shaft. And it was immediately clear, Chinese firepower was superior. His was thicker and meatier. More rigid. Veinier 更多血脉的. Powerfully tapered almost like a weapon. He placed his thumb on the base of his shaft and depressed his artillery until it laid on top of mine and then bent mine lower, totally hiding it underneath. Eclipsing mine. Emasculating me. My circumcized American cock almost looked defective compared to his. A Chinese boy with a man-sized cock, and an American man with a boydick. It crippled my pride. "So small..." he said with almost a pitious tone 怜悯的语气 in his voice. "And you're still a boy," I blurted out in a thin, sick sounding voice. When I was his age, I was half his size. How powerful would he grow to be when he'd become my age? I could hear my heart pounding in my ears as the shame of what being born American meant for my cock. Weak! "Chinese... are always bigger," I admitted, putting myself down and lifting up his whole race. With what was in front of our eyes, who could disagree? And then he spoke. "Thank you for drying me," WangYibo said curtly, and turned on his heel to walk out of the bathroom. I stood there stunned, watching him leave and feeling disappointed, empty. Didn't he know how badly I wanted him? How much I would have done for him? How good I could have made him feel? But he left. Was it because I was inadequate? Was it because he compared his Chinese cock to my American endowment It gave me a revolting sense of disappointing shame that my Americanness wasn't good enough for him, and I started to utterly hate myself for it. But I had not become a pedophile. The barrier was still, amazingly intact. As defeated as I felt, I was like the Kuomintang, on the verge of surrender but miraculously left clinging to life on the island of Taiwan. As soon as WangYibo had left the bathroom, I collapsed to my knees on the cold floor, feeling vanquished 被打败. We had been so close! It felt wonderful to feel the rigid warmth of his cock pressing against mine as he pushed my cock down with his. It was as if he had won a battle. I was prepared to surrender, physically and spiritually, right then and there. But then, he walked out. It left me with only one conclusion: he had decided I wasn't even worth it. I was only good enough to carry out his tasks, not to satisfy him. I would only ever be his servant. It was a crushing blow. Despite my self doubt and shame, horniness still raged. Without a second thought, still kneeling on the floor, I clasped my whole cock in my hand and started stroking vigorously. I needed release! And I surely would have gotten it, carelessly spewing my load all over the tiled floor, except I heard WangYibo call from the other room. "The laundry needs to be done." On hearing his order, I let go of my cock like it was a hot iron, stopping just short of bringing myself to orgasm. My small cock twitched bobbed a few times and oozed precum, but I had been denied the release I needed. This gave me time to ask: what was I doing? Servant that I was, I probably didn't even deserve to pleasure myself without his permission. I got to my feet again, and walked out into the living room with my little American cock still rock hard and glistening with precum dribbling down the shaft. I made no effort to hide it. WangYibo, now dressed, didn't seem to take notice and matter of factly told me where all the dirty clothes were, and I set to my task. Eventually, my cock deflated and the horniness left me, but not without leaving behind a gnawing ( gnawing 挥之不去的, 摆脱不掉的, 挥不去的 [ˈnɔɪŋ] continuously causing you pain or worrying you. gnaw to keep biting something. David gnawed his lip, obviously worried. A rat had gnawed through the cable. gnaw (away) at someone if something gnaws at you, you keep worrying about it or feeling upset about it. ) emptiness, a craving for something more. For better or worse, the rest of the day was end to end 一件接一件的 ( I. in a row with the end of one object touching that of another. "bales were laid end to end for a delivery". II. from the very beginning of a process to the very end: We offer our clients end-to-end solutions covering all aspects from design, to manufacture to packaging. He admitted to not providing wounded troops with the end-to-end care they deserve. III. used to refer to a system of communication where only the people communicating can read the messages: Will end-to-end encryption eliminate the chance that stolen cardholder data can be used successfully for fraudulent transactions? This section focuses on end-to-end data privacy, where no intermediate nodes are able to understand the data that passes through them. ) tasks. For the most part, WangYibo stayed in his room doing homework, calling out new orders 下达命令 from time to time. I cooked us dinner, but remembered my rule and went back to my room to eat it alone. Even after our intimacy in the bathroom, he made no effort to invite me to share the meal with him. "Thank you for your work today," he finally said around 9PM. "You should go to bed now." I thanked him and slunk back to my room, closed the door, and literally wilted 瘫坐一团 on the bed. The day and all its tension and excitement had drained me down to a weakling. The only saving grace was that, already being naked, I didn't even have to get undressed. I fell quickly into a fitful 断断续续的, 时断时续的, 一阵一阵的, 时有时无的 ( starting and stopping often. Something that is fitful happens for irregular periods of time or occurs at irregular times, rather than being continuous. Colin drifted off into a fitful sleep. The government is making slow and fitful progress in these negotiations. fitful sleep.) sleep, dreaming vividly. ------ In my dream, I found myself out on the balcony again. The sliding glass door was locked behind me again, but I didn't care. I understood that there was no going back inside, and liked it. This time the air was bitterly cold. I knew the chill must be making my manhood shrivel, but whenever I tried to look down at it, for some reason I never managed to see it. Instead I reached down to feel, and yes... my soft cock was small in my hand. Then I remembered the joke of the first girl I awkwardly tried to make out with back in high school, who saw me and said, "If you water it, maybe it will grow." And lo and behold, I was holding a watering can in my right hand; I decided I would give it a try. I stopped watering the plants and sprinkled water on my cock instead. The water, like the air around me, was ice cold. My cock tingled and I actually felt it drawing into my body. Again, I tried to look but it was unseeable, so I felt it. Now it was tiny. I watered it again. Now it felt puny. With a growing desire to see where this would end up, I dumped the rest of the water right on my cock, dropped the can, and felt with both hands. There was NO cock there. No balls. No hair. Just smooth skin. I laughed riotously 大声的, 狂笑, whether it was at the situation or at myself, I couldn't tell. I looked up from the balcony and noticed that the adjacent apartment buildings were looming right next to the balcony, seemingly almost within arm's reach. I could easily see one family after another, milling about inside their apartments or out on their own balcony. They were watching me intently with their deep brown, almond-shape eyes. I didn't want to hide from them. I hopped up on the railing of the balcony, balancing fearlessly on the edge, and called out to all of them, in Chinese, "I HAVE NOTHING LEFT!!!" I rubbed my hand over my sleek, androgynous groin as if to call all their attention to it. One by one, they broke into smiles and began to applaud me. Where WangYibo's reaction in the bathroom had left me feeling worthless, the response of the Chinese neighbors made me feel appreciated for being... nothing. I was thrilled. At that point I lost my balance and began to fall backward off the railing, into the well of the balcony, landing with a loud crash. ----- I woke up from the dream with a gasp, the sound of my crash landing in the dream slowly fading from my ears. A moment later, the room lit up briefly a bright electric blue, and a few seconds later came a loud clap of thunder. All at once I understood, I'd been awakened from my dream by a thunderstorm moving through Shanghai. Even though I realized I had returned to reality, my right hand shot down to my privates, where I found them still in place, the same soft and small endowment I'd always had. Part of me was relieved that nothing had really changed, but part of me was disappointed to find I hadn't really become androgynous. I still felt the sense of thrill from the dream, how I'd been applauded not for being small, but for being nothing at all. I was trying to make sense of this guilty thrill when the bedroom door pushed open and WangYibo walked in. I yanked my hand back from touching myself. "Are you scared?" he asked me out of the blue. His voice was surprisingly halting. "Scared? Of... the thunderstorm, sir?" In the dim light, I saw him nod his head. As confident as he was with me, it dawned on me he must be scared by the thunderstorm. My master... was merely a human boy after all. I looked at the clock. It was nearly 2AM. "Oh, no sir, in a modern building like ours, we're perfectly safe. It's just something exciting for us to watch," I said, making sure my voice exuded calm. To make my point clear, I got up out of bed -- it still felt weird to emerge naked from under covers with him in the room, but I was getting used to it -- and stood right in front of the floor to ceiling window. I looked out over the dazzling lights of Shanghai burning like embers in the night. The tall buildings and bright colors spoke to the the muscular power of China's mighty economy. He came alongside me hesitantly, perhaps still concerned there was a danger of being hit by lightning. I looked at him briefly with a sideways glance, and he was wearing just tight briefs. In the dim light afforded by the distant glow of the city lights, I could see the subtle ripples of his budding muscles, and the round heft of the bulge in his briefs. But then I looked away before I could grow hard. Just then a large lightning bolt sliced through the sky and hit the top of the Shanghai Tower in the distance. "There, you see? The Shanghai Tower just got hit and its lights didn't even flicker! Everyone inside is safe. So are we." No sooner had I finished saying "so are we" than the loud thunder arrived, rattling the window. WangYibo jumped, then started to retreat from the window, perhaps not as much from fear as embarrassment for being startled. There was no hiding that he was scared. He backed away and sat down silently at the edge of my bed, still watching out the window... or watching me, I couldn't tell in the dim light. I walked over and took up a comfortable position on the floor at his feet. From where I sat, I had to crane my neck to look at him. Somehow, the shared experience of the thunderstorm and the dim lighting seemed to relax the expectations of master and servant, and I took a chance and asked him a question. " WangYibo... am I always your servant? Like, even now?" I consciously used his name, and omitted the sir, waiting to see what his reaction might be. "No... not always," he responded after a moment of consideration. "Not now, I guess." My heart started to pound. This simple answer made me feel closer to him again, after the excruciating distance that had opened up between us when he walked out of the bathroom earlier. "I'm honored to be your servant, and I always will be. But... maybe there are things I can do for you... that you don't need to ask for." My heart raced even faster, and I tensed to see if he would stand up and walk out again, or chastise me for such impudence ( impudent 大不敬, 不尊重 [ˈɪmpjəd(ə)nt] [formal, disapproval] behaving in a rude way that shows no respect for someone. If you describe someone as impudent, you mean they are rude or disrespectful, or do something they have no right to do. Some of them were impudent and insulting. One sister had the impudence to wear the other's clothes. an impudent child. impudent remarks. ). After an agonizingly long pause, he finally asked, "Like what?" He called my bluff! Truth be told, I was even surprised to hear myself ask this question, and I certainly hadn't even dared to imagine I could do something of my own volition(volition [vəˈlɪʃ(ə)n]
the power or ability to decide something by yourself and to take action
to get what you want. A more usual word is will. Your volition is the
power you have to decide something for yourself. We like to think that everything we do and everything we think is a product of our volition. He felt as though he were in the grip of Fate and had no volition of his own. Did he come of his own volition? of one's own volition 自愿的
If you do something of your own volition, you do it because you have
decided for yourself that you will do it and not because someone else
has told you to do it. Makin said Mr Coombes had gone to the police of his own volition.). Nevertheless, almost as if by instinct, I reached down and took his right foot into my hands, and raised his slender leg up so his foot was in front of me. I started massaging his foot, gentle as a whisper, kneading it slowly and sensuously. "Like this," I answered in a breathless whisper. "Mmmm..." WangYibo let out a pleasured moan, making his answer clear. For the tenth time today, my cock stiffened and stood up between my thighs, and I saw WangYibo looking at it. His moan told me he enjoyed the feeling, and my erection told him the same. WangYibo's moan sent a tingle down my spine and radiating 发散 out to the tips of my limbs. Before that moment, his reaction to everything we'd done had been inscrutable. When he encouraged me to slide my briefs down in the kitchen, or when he pressed his cock against mine in the bathroom, I knew it turned me on tremendously -- I could hear my own heart beating in my ears. The best I could do is assume it turned him on the same way... if he was like me. No sooner had I made that assumption, then he seemed to make a point of pulling back from me the way I was utterly incapable of pulling back from 抽身而已, 抽离 him him, proving me wrong. It was a whipsaw. Now, for the first time, he revealed pleasure in our intimacy. There was no mistaking that moan, it was spoken in an international language of arousal. I felt powerfully connected to him, and my thoughts accelerated. He liked this, and I liked this, and neither of us was forcing it on the other. I was offering it to him, and he was accepting. But what was I offering? Right now, just a foot massage. I wanted to offer something much more. Taking a chance that the "not a servant right now" status was still in effect, I again followed my own desire without asking permission. Leaning down, I brought my lips to the sole of his foot, and kissed it. His foot wriggled in my hand briefly, but he made no effort to withdraw it 没有要抽离的意思, and eventually I felt it relax in my hand. Then that wasn't enough. I moved my lips to his big toe, and gently let it slip inside my mouth. Now I heard him gasp, and I looked up from between his legs to see his face in the dim view of the bedroom. I could see his mouth hanging agape ( 大张着嘴 If you describe someone as having their mouth agape, their mouth is open very wide, often because they are very surprised by something. She stood looking at Carmen with her mouth agape. ) and his eyes wide in surprise. I kept sucking his big toe until I finally elicited another moan from the boy, this one louder and less restrained 克制 than the first. Thoughts were tumbling over and over 思绪滚滚 in my head, but my mouth was filled so I said nothing. Amidst the hungry slurping sounds, he was the one to break the silence. "Why are you doing this?" The question didn't indicate disapproval, just curiosity or even surprise. I let WangYibo's toe slide out of my mouth. "Does it feel good?" I asked. "Yes," he answered immediately. "I want to make you feel good," I answered swiftly. "What else will you do?" he asked, his voice now trembling. This was an invitation. I bent my head down, but now I placed gentle kisses on the top of his foot, then on his ankle, then ever so slowly up his calf. As my lips planted their gifts on his shin, my hands gently stroked the back of his calf. It was silky smooth in my hand. Now I could hear WangYibo breathing more heavily. "Does this bring you pleasure?" I asked, pausing my kisses to look up into his eyes, while still caressing his calf. "Yessss..." In saying the long, drawn-out word, his voice wavered, obviously modulated by his pounding heart. "I want to give you pleasure," I responded, proud that I had such good answers to match his. I lowered my head to kiss his knee, and as I did, my eyes swept past his tight briefs. The glow of the nearby alarm clock display cast enough light to show the definite outline of his Chinese cock, rigid and girthy inside the fabric, and jutting off to the right( jut out 突出, 探出 I. intransitive to be farther forward than other things or than normal. If something juts out, it sticks out above or beyond a surface. The
northern end of the island juts out like a long, thin finger into the
sea. Tombstones jutted out of the ground in broken clusters. He had
clear blue eyes and a jutting chin. Her hip bones jutted out. My eyes were like quarter moons (半圆形) as he treated me to my very first rim job, then he stood up behind me and fingered lube into my ass. I had no idea where it came from, but as he finger fucked it into my hole, I parted my feet and jutted my hips back 撅起屁股, 翘起屁股, 挺起屁股. I scrambled out of my sweatpants and made my move by crawling onto the bed on my hands and knees with my ass sticking straight up. I felt his touch on my plump 肥美的, 肥硕的 ass cheeks, then he knelt behind me and feasted at my back door. My toes were curling hard and my fists were closed tight, bunching two handfuls of his bedspread while the delicious sensations ran their course through my frame. II. 仰着下巴. transitive
to put your chin or lip farther forward than normal because you are
determined or angry. If you jut a part of your body, especially your
chin, or if it juts, you push it forward in an aggressive or determined
way. His jaw jutted stubbornly forward;
he would not be denied. Gwen jutted her chin forward and did not answer
the teacher. Ken's jaw jutted with determination.). In that moment, I knew I wanted to give him something much more than pleasure. I wanted to give this young Chinese boy the honor of destroying my last barrier. I wanted to give him myself. And when this happened, it would not be because he defeated me, it would be because I would surrender it. Slowly, seductively, gently, I started kissing my way up his hairless, young thigh. Occasionally, he'd flex his quadriceps underneath my lips, and they turned rigid and powerful. Now I grabbed the bulk of his thigh and drew it towards myself as I pressed down hard with my lips. We were grinding into each other. With each kiss my heart raced faster in the dread that he might pull away and put a stop to this yet again. But he didn't. With each inch my lips travelled, my whole body grew numb because I knew there was no going back from what I was about to do. When my lips came to rest against the elastic band edge of the leghole in his briefs, I stopped and craned my neck to look up at him. " WangYibo..." I whispered, plaintively, meekly, docilely. My voice was laden with desire. He fixed me with his piercing Asian eyes, and his answer was just one word. For the first time since I signed the contract, he spoke my name. My fate was sealed... Hearing WangYibo speak my name was as shocking as if one of the thunderbolts outside had come through the window and hit me instead. It was the exact antithesis ( [ænˈtɪθəsɪs] I. the exact opposite of something. The little black dress is the antithesis of fussy dressing. II. If there is an antithesis between two things, there is a contrast between them. ...the antithesis between instinct and reason. ) of being walked out on 离他而去, 离她而去 after our encounter in the bathroom, and the effect was just as dramatic on me, but in the opposite sense. The tone in his voice was laden with desire. I knew he wanted me to do what I had been fighting against doing. There was no way at all for me to fight against that now. I returned my gaze to the front of his briefs. The light was dim but I knew full well what was just beneath the clean, tight, white fabric of his briefs. Something inside was swollen, stiff, thick, and jutting off to the right. And I knew that thing was his Chinese boycock. I'd seen it before in the bathroom. I'd even felt it press against mine. Now, it was time to go further... much further. I brought my trembling hands to the waistband and gently slid the tips of my fingers inside. Even that small exploratory 探索式的 act seemed like the kind of initiative someone like me would not be allowed to do. I waited with a sense of foreboding to see if this is where he'd draw the line. I could just imagine him telling me to stop and running away, leaving me to start this all over again some later day. Instead, I just heard his heavy, trembling breathing. I gently pulled the waistband out and away from his smooth skin. How amazing that a servant like me was being allowed to remove the clothes of this Chinese boy who, by contract and our shared understanding, was my superior. Again, he didn't resist. Now I heard a shallow moan punctuate his heavy breathing. I pulled the waistband further out. At that point, the fabric of the briefs could no longer contain the sideways facing member that had grown stiff while being trapped inside, and it swung out to stand straight up, spring loaded by the vigor of his 14 year old body, and accentuated by the genetics that made Chinese dicks so uncommonly stiff in the first place. I instinctively backed away 本能的后退, as if I was afraid to get hit by it, and it passed within inches of my nose. "Oh god," I moaned in awe to see it up so close. WangYibo's cock must have been tickled by the warm breath of my exclamation, because I saw his shaft bob and twitch. Just then, another lightning bolt cut through the sky outside, and the room was lit up by a bright flash. What had been the dull gray outline of his cock momentarily became a crisp, brightly illuminated image that burned into my retinas. I could enjoy the image of it even after the room fell dark as the lightning bolt spent its energy. The frozen image I saw was the cock of a 14 year old Chinese boy who was thicker, slightly longer, and definitely more powerful than what I had between my legs, and who would undoubtedly grow up to utterly dwarf my American cock. I realized he must have become even more aroused than in the bathroom, because now almost all of his purple glans had emerged from the foreskin. The momentarily 短暂的 brilliant illumination allowed me to take in every detail as if I was looking at a picture. The slight shininess made by precum that had started leaking out of the slit and coating the glans. The veins that laced seductively around the shaft. The way the shaft was slightly thicker at the end than at the base, which only accentuated its power. How ramrod ( ramrod [ˈræmˌrɑd] a long thin stick that was used for pushing gunpowder into a gun. A ramrod is a long, thin rod which can be used for pushing something into a narrow tube. Ramrods were used, for example, for forcing an explosive substance down the barrel of an old-fashioned gun, or for cleaning the barrel of a gun. verb. If someone has a ramrod 笔直的 back or way of standing, they have a very straight back and hold themselves in a rather stiff and formal way. I don't have the ramrod posture I had when I was in the Navy. At 75, she's still ramrod straight. like a ramrod/straight as a ramrod If someone sits or stands like a ramrod 坐的笔直, 站得笔直 or straight as a ramrod, they have a very straight back and appear rather stiff and formal. ...a woman with iron grey hair, high cheekbones and a figure like a ramrod. ...his dashing military moustache and straight-as-a-ramrod back.) straight it was. The small, neat tuft ( [tʌft] A tuft of something such as hair or grass is a small amount of it which is growing together in one place or is held together at the bottom. He had a small tuft of hair on his chin. ...tufts of wool torn from sheep by bushes and brambles.) of jet black pubes at the base. The totally hairless and slightly wrinkled ball sack that was slung underneath, hanging free enough to show the mass of two walnut-sized balls inside. With the image frozen on the back of my eyes 刻在心底( have eyes in the back of one's head 脑后有眼, 后边长眼 (idiomatic) To be particularly, especially uncannily, observant; a perceived ability to see in all directions at once. used to say a person has seen or noticed something that is behind him or her How did you know we were here? You must have eyes in the back of your head! It's so busy at our office you need eyes in the back of your head to work there! close one's eyes and think of England 为大局着想, 忍辱负重 To accept one's duty patriotically, particularly (idiomatic, euphemistic) to endure unwanted affection or sex due to social pressures. Etymology: Supposedly derived from the 1912 journal of Alice Marion Mills, Lady Hillingdon, now lost. Later apocryphally connected to Lucy Baldwin, wife of Prime Minister Baldwin, and Queen Victoria or described as advice given to Victorian era brides-to-be. First popularized by the 1955 translation of Pierre Daninos's 1954 Les Carnets du Major Thompson, a French satire on upper class British culture. ), time seemed to slow to a standstill, but my thoughts did not. Now, in only a matter of days, this boy, the presence of this young Chinese boy, had ignited something in me, and there was utterly no way to fight against it. Without further hesitation, as I knelt between his legs, I moved my face in until my lips touched his shaft, planted a kiss on the precum-slickened glans, then opened my mouth to let it slide in. I was now a pedophile. I was an American pedophile who craved to service young Chinese boys. I was a white man who had yielded to the seductive power of a Chinese boy and offered him not just my lips but my identity. For him, and him alone, I had destroyed the person I used to be for 25 years. My new identity as a pedophile penetrated by being just as his Chinese cock penetrated my lips and slipped inch by inch into my mouth. But it had not happened because he forced me to do it. It was my head that was going down on his boycock. It was me that offered to become a pedophile as a way of serving and pleasing and admiring and yielding him. Gone were the days of fooling around with fellow Americans here in Shanghai, of hoping for a relationship with someone who was my peer. It was an instantaneous moment of both conquest and victory. The contract I'd sign might last for five years, but I'd just surrendered to a change that would last the rest of my life. At that point, the thunderclap 炸雷, 霹雷 ( A thunderclap is a short loud noise that you hear in the sky just after you see a flash of lightning. ) of the lightning bolt arrived, and rattled the windows powerfully. The loud boom did not seem like the disapproving roar of a vengeful god. I did not feel chastised for my act. Instead, I saw it as the crash made by the destruction of who I had always been constrained to be ( be/feel constrained to do something 使命一般的, 必须做, 不得不做 to feel that you must do something. If you feel constrained to do something, you feel that you must do it, even though you would prefer not to. For some reason he felt constrained to lower his voice. He felt constrained to accept the invitation. constrain verb. To constrain someone or something means to limit their development or force them to behave in a particular way. Many working parents are too often constrained by inflexible working hours. The company is constrained to offer salaries that can only attract mediocre staff. These will be very constrained budgets designed to get the deficit down. ). I would look back on this event as the moment I found total freedom in China. What a joy to have WangYibo's cock in my mouth! What a liberation to let go of any guilt that I should only suck men of my own age. What a thrill to serve my new master. And, as I heard WangYibo moan loudly in pleasure, what an honor to offer to service a Chinese boy and be allowed to do so! WangYibo's cock was not the largest I'd had a chance to suck -- that honor went to a Russian university student I'd met at a club and brought home in a moment of horny weakness. He was simply too big -- his veiny uncut member was too thick to comfortably fit into my mouth, and it was too long to have been sucked all the way at any rate. I had to satisfy him by licking along the length of his torpedo-like shaft. Eventually he declared haughtily, "Fucking American women better than suck from American man" in broken English, pulled his monster cock away from my ministrations ( ministrations [ˌmɪnɪˈstreɪʃ(ə)nz] 职责所在 things that you do to help or take care of someone. A person's ministrations are the things they do to help or care for someone in a particular situation, especially someone who is weak or ill. ...the tender ministrations of the buxom woman who cut his hair. buxom [ˈbʌksəm] 丰满的 a buxom woman is slightly fat in an attractive way, with large breasts.) and forced it into his pants, and left. "Well, good luck with her," was all I could say as he left. I hoped it wouldn't be as uncomfortable for her pussy as I knew he was for my jaw! Fortunately, WangYibo's cock was only a little thicker and a little longer than mine. But I was having trouble going down all the way on him, too! The problem wasn't the size... it was the unyielding stiffness. After slurping in about half his cock, the glans jabbed 戳着 the back of my throat, and simply refused to bend and sink further down my throat like every white cock I'd sucked. Chinese steel! Uncomfortable between his legs, I changed my position and lined my throat up in a straight line so the second half of his cock could push into my mouth and sink down my throat. It worked. I felt my nose press into his pubes, and my chin came to a stop pressed against his balls. "Ohhhh! So good," WangYibo moaned loudly. I inhaled deeply through my nose and brought in his scent. It was mostly clean and soapy, a light floral fragrance left over from his bath earlier in the day, but there was a slightly sweet muskiness to it that spoke to the burgeoning development ( speak to someone to talk to someone who has done something wrong in an effort to persuade them to improve their behavior. You really ought to speak to him about coming late to class. speak to something mainly spoken to answer a question or talk about a particular subject. to give evidence of or comments on (a subject) who will speak to this item? I'm afraid I can't speak to that in detail. Can you speak to the advantages of performing in the smaller venues? ) of this boy into a man. It smelled powerful. It felt seductive. I stayed there, fully impaled on his boycock, feeling it rigid as a metal pole pointed down my throat, and took breath after deep breath through my nose. Taking him in. Letting his smell change me from the inside out. Eventually, WangYibo grew tired of me sitting there unmoving, and he brought his hand to my head and gently but insistently pushed me backwards. Inch by swollen inch, it slid back out, its thickness scraping against my teeth. I felt the glans gliding across my tongue and then slipping out from between my lips. Freed from captivity, it swung back to vertical so powerfully that it slapped against his silky smooth abs with a loud and sloppy "thwap". It stood there, sprouting from his body, tall and proud. It reminded me of the Shanghai Tower we'd seen outside the window. Tall, confident, a symbol of power. I went in for another suck, intending to swallow WangYibo whole again. WangYibo had other ideas. At the last minute, he grabbed the base of his cock and swung it out of the way. As my face dove in to his groin, his cock instead mashed against my right cheek. Crazed with desire, I rubbed my face across it, feeling how it was slick with my own saliva. I backed up and tried to lunge down on him again. This time he deftly moved his cock out of the way to the other side, and now he was grinding my left cheek. Frustrated to be so close and yet so far from what I wanted, I whimpered. "Please, I want to suck you!" "Why?" he challenged. "I want to taste your POWER!" I shouted crazily. An American man who needed to taste the power of a Chinese boy. What had I become? That satisfied him, and he aimed his swollen shaft right at my open mouth and bucked his hips 提臀 to drive it deep into my throat. After that, he was in the driver's seat. My head bobbed and jarred under the onslaught of lightning fast twitches of his hips. Face fucking me harder and harder. The slap of his body against my face echoed off the walls. If his parents had been home, they would have heard it through the door! My own body was getting tossed around by the vigor and confidence of his thrusts, and my American cock bobbed and waggled ( waggle 晃来晃去, 摇晃 to move up and down or from side to side with short quick movements, or to make something move that way. If you waggle something, or if something waggles, it moves up and down or from side to side with short quick movements. He was waggling his toes in his socks. ...puppet animals with eyes that move and ears that waggle. Roger waggled his eyebrows suggestively. ) between my legs as I was pushed backwards and forwards by WangYibo. At last, with my hands clasped around his thighs, I felt his muscles begin to tense 收紧 more and more. I knew what was coming, but WangYibo didn't slow down. He drove into me mercilessly! "Ahhhhhh!" he cried out in pleasured tension. I felt his young Chinese cock erupt as a hot sticky jet shot out and hit the back of my throat. WangYibo cried out in sudden dismay. He brusquely ( brusque [brʌsk] adj. I. ( curt) 说话简短的, speaking quickly in an unfriendly way using very few words. If you describe a person or their behaviour as brusque, you mean that they deal with things, or say things, quickly and shortly, so that they seem to be rude. The doctors are brusque and busy. They received a characteristically brusque reply from him. 'It's only a sprain,' Paula said brusquely. His tone was brusque. She often seems a little brusque when she is interviewing people. II. using quick movements that show that you do not feel friendly toward someone. her brusque manner. ) pushed my head off his body and moved his hips back, sure that he was doing something unspeakably wrong. The first jet 第一炮, 第一发炮弹 of his ejaculation landed in my throat, but every jet in the 10 seconds after that splashed powerfully onto my face, hair, and neck. It felt warm and sticky as it started to run down my body in rivulets ( rivulet 一小股 [ˈrɪvjʊlɪt] I. a small stream of water or another liquid. A rivulet is a small stream. "sweat ran in rivulets down his back". II. a very small river or stream. III. a brownish European moth with white markings, occurring in rough grassland. ). He really thought he was peeing?? "What happened?" WangYibo asked, sounding concerned and embarrassed, as if ready to be apologetic. He leaned over and turned on the bedside lamp to see what he'd done. And that's when I understood: I had given this young Chinese boy his first orgasm! I saw him looking at me, covered in his cum, with a look of shock and maybe even disgust. I could only imagine what I looked like. "Sir, you didn't pee," I began patiently, returning to calling him sir. "What was it?" I couldn't decide whether to feel frustrated that the sexual thrill of the moment would now be extinguished as I had to stop to teach WangYibo the birds-and-bees lesson he'd never gotten. Or if I should feel thrilled that I had been his very first. I decided to take the honor. "Sir, this is how boys' bodies react to having sex. If I was a girl, this stuff--" I scooped some of his cum off of my face and neck, and brought my creamy finger to my lips to lick it off, "--is what men give to girls to make babies." Feeling jealous, I decided not to explain where he would have to plant his Chinese seed in a girl for that to happen. I could see the lightbulb go off, and a smile covered his face as the understanding mixed with the orgasmic pleasure he was feeling. His cock was still twitching and still gently oozing small pearls of thick white cum. As I leaned in to lick them off the tip of his cock, I said in a lusty voice, "I want to be your American girl, sir." "No," he corrected me. "You are my American slave!" I moaned loudly. It felt good to be downgraded so completely. I decided from this moment on, I would be unquestioningly loyal to my Chinese master. He could do absolutely anything he wanted with me. Anything. No sooner had I resolved that I would be unquestionably loyal to my young Chinese master and that he could do absolutely anything he wanted with me... he stood up and wordlessly walked out of my bedroom. I was left on my knees, wordless and wholly unsatisfied, alone in my room, and coated with his boycum. I was an American man who had felt the urge to leave America behind and come here to China, to serve at the beck and call of 听命于 a young boy, to accept him as my master and superior, taking his young cock into my mouth and accepting myself as a pedophile. I thought through the collection of perceptions I had gathered on the way to being this moment. I thought about how China was rising and how America was falling. How Americans were now going to China as supplicants ( supplicant [ˈsʌplɪkənt] someone who requests something from someone powerful or from God. A supplicant is a person who prays to God or respectfully asks an important person to help them or to give them something that they want very much. He flung himself down in the flat submissive posture of a mere supplicant. ) hoping for work, and work on the terms of the more confident Chinese. In my case, I'd given myself over completely to a young Chinese boy, to be his loyal possession. After that thought coursed through my brain ( course through sth To rush or flow through something, especially with great speed or force. to run, race, or flow rapidly through something. I believe, sometimes, that ice water courses through your veins. No, perfectly red blood courses through them. As soon as I stepped on the stage, I could feel the adrenaline coursing through my body. The deadly disease coursed through the densely populated city at an alarming rate. Intense antiwar sentiment has been coursing through the country.), I became aware that I was jacking my small American cock. WangYibo might not have felt any desire to do it, but no rules had been imposed on me not to do it myself. My stroking sped up to a frenzied pace. I looked out the window. Skyscrapers. Shanghai. China. POWER. I looked at the reflection: cum-splattered American pedophile. Weakness. Defeat. The two mixed into one, as peanut butter mixes with chocolate to make a dessert. I shot three weak spurts of cum onto the window. It was either because I was drained of all energy, or because the orgasm that had resulted from my nearly traitorous thoughts had been so cripplingly strong, but I fell to my knees, thoroughly broken. Eye level with my milky white cum as it slowly trickled down the window pane 窗框, I did the only thing my spirit was capable of. Looking out the window at a cityscape far more powerful and grand than anything my own country could even dare to build, I leaned forward and licked the window glass completely clean of my own cum, and swallowed it all. Then I stood up, walked back to my bed, and fell face first onto it, falling into a deep, paralyzing sleep.
